The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
to follow the input of my HP. 17 years ago one of my recovering AA sisters dropped by my office and asked me to come out to speak with her own sister. I was managing an auto dealership and she was in a jeep parked at the entrance. When I got to the Jeep a body form was on the passenger side slumped against the door obviously out of consciousness. She told me later she had no idea where she was or what was going on or about to go on. She would become another sister in AA and it was her own sister that brought her to the dealership. I felt hopeless and ricocheted back into my faithlessness. "This lady isn't going to make it" I thought and then entered the room of powerlessness. I turned her over and let her go never changing my mind or opinion.
My Higher Power takes exception at my personality of doubt and I get the question "Could you be wrong" over and over. My sponsor taught HP that question and of course the answer is obvious...Always.
She sat next to me this morning at my home group and one of her favorites also and cried quietly in gratitude. I was overwhelmed again being wrong for the last 17 years even as she and her sister have become with miracles the hard deep foundation of my own recovery. God has directed them in my recovery and I understand the reason for the very first meeting. It wasn't about her only and both of us as directed by our Higher Powers....He used us all as a group to carry out the battle against this fatal disease. HP wants us, all of us, sober to do AA's service of helping others to get and stay sober. I can be wrong and I am willing to be wrong.
When anyone anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA to always be there and for that....I am responsible. Thanks for letting me share ((((hugs))))
Great share Jerry - thank you for the ESH. I went to my F2F this morning and had woken up grateful. It carried me to the meeting, through the meeting and still holds me right now! I am so grateful I was led to recovery. It certainly makes me feel more complete in so many ways!
Happy Sunday to all! Off to the fields for 4 games in a while...
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
To sit in the group of 30 people all wanting the same thing (recovery) and sharing their experiences which worked for them and they know will work for others is a very spiritual event. My heart and my soul feel confident that I will never have to return to the place came from; that hell called addiction; alcoholism and drug addiction and all of the behaviors and outcomes which also result from it.
I just shared our ESH, including my wife with my daughter-in-law who is the wife victim of this family disease with the hope that she also arrive at the peace of mind and serenity we have been so fortunate to experience. I am grateful beyond words for the program including Miracle In Progress and all the brothers and sisters I am fortunate to recover with. Mahalo Piha...Thank you all so very much. ((((hugs))))
There really is a miracle to the "group", isn't there? This is new to me. I've been so tightly bound in my own need to do it all on my own, by myself, that I have not been open to this miracle and power of the group, helping each other. I think I am at least open to this now. Thank you all for sharing this here.
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"put yourself in the place where grace can flow to you." - robert lax
