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hi everyone. well yesterday my a called saying he hit his bottom and is done with that way of life and is going to go to meetings again. so far i hear bs bs bs. i wont believe anything anymore until i see it. im sure this is not the end of it. he may go to a meeting tonight but will he get help? i dont know. im not letting him move his stuff back in just yet. there is the issue that he may be going out of town for a job where all it is is drinking and drugs. so i have the expectations he will just fail again. im not letting him convince me into anything right now. i will just have to see what happens. watch the footwork. as for me.....im going to work tonight with no expectations that he will be there to pick me up as he has left me there before. so i will take extra money for a cab. and all of this is one day at a time. things change every half an hour here so i have no idea what to do. all i know is i dont have to do anything right now.
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stay in the now...dont look forward, dont look back....your life is what you make of it
I have had to have the no expectations about cooperation from the A and I find that is the only way to be. This week I had to ask the a for help and he acted out around it. I bitterly resented it but then let it to immediately. I know that I have to work really hard to try to separate out as much as I can from him. Expecting him to cooperate is not feasible. He has not, will not and probably only does it when he feels insecure. I have let myself fall so many times expecting him to cooperate going to the hardware store for bread. I do not do it anymore. I ask very very little now and I do it myself without resenting him now. I have given up resenting he has this disease. He has to cure it himself I will not be put in the position of the warden anymore.
You are only too right in your stance. When the chips are down the only being that will not let you down (that walks this earth) is very same woman who looks back at you from that mirror. You continue to anticipate and be prepared. I used to be sucked into relying upon unreliable promises and making decisions based on a shifting mind incapable of making sound decisions.
It's a difficult enough life to manuever life in your own boat...never mind letting someone else steer you into the rocks. I applaud your remarks and hold HIGH expectations that when you continue to act and stay strong....if your beloved A DOES finally find the strength to guide himself through recovery,you will be a mighty fine example of preserverance and more open to enjoy a sincere recovery with pride and support instead of fragile suspicion and false hope.
One Day at A Time. HP, please to continue to give us the courage and the strength each day.. to Let it Go and Let our HP/God take care of those things we have no control over. Your in my thoughts and prayers. Keep Looking uP! So Glad your HERE. ((BigHug))
HP, please to continue to give us the courage and the strength each day.. to Let it Go and Let our HP/God take care of those things we have no control over. Your in my thoughts and prayers. Keep Looking uP! 
So Glad your HERE. ((BigHug))