I have been reading a lot on detachment here on line and its helping me a lot. I just remembered what the abf said the other day. He went on a bender and I had left him for 5 days and during that time I went and got an apartment for myself, and even went camping for the night with my sister and daughter. I told him what I did and that I went camping, he was mad. He says you went and had a good time did you? I said yes I did. He did not say anything. I thought to myself, you expect me to not have a life because your using. I am to stay at home 24 hours a day and listen to your drunken crap? I am to sit and listen for hours on end insane drunk talk, while the rest of the world continues to live? While the rest of the world has things to do and see? I laughed at myself at the insanity of his mind! He is totally insane! You want to live and have a life, get out of the house and do something with yourself...get out and meet people and be somebody, not sitting at home and criticizing the world and how bad it is...if you start living, then maybe it will not be so bad! Maybe if you start having a life it will not be so bad! I had a good time being at campsite, even just for the night even though I was sick. I have a infection inside my stomach that makes walking and moving impossible some days! Despite the pain, I went and enjoyed myself the best I could! he is so sick I can not stand being around him!