The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
This is where I am challenged the most. When big transitions happen in my life; the anxiety kicks in as the fear of letting go of something floods to the surface. I have had so many transitions this past year, some of my choosing and others not. I've tried to keep in control of what I could and let go of what I couldn't.
i feel lost and alone today, and upset with the choices I have made that have gotten me to this place. years holding onto things that never changed. Still hope in someone's words and yet their actions have yet to match. Mad at all the wrong people and scared to express how I really feel to everyone. Judgement from so many sources in my life. Yet I know that's me reflecting on things that I know aren't healthy for me.
Lots of tears today. It feels good to let it out. Yet I'm ready for the pain to subside and to feel the good that is all around me. This journey is so up and down for me. Im ready for stability...
Transitions in life are hard and i only do
The ones i have to. Change is hard for me.
The more you work your program you will
Let go of judgements. Its tough in your
Intimate life i know, try to work on it In
your ftf mtgs.
There is such growth when people do not
Feel judged so they can grow and change
And be open and honest. You can be vulnerable
And take your walls down. Its beautiful to
Watch when people feel safe to express
Their true inner self.
Ftf mtgs are where we practice what we
Learn. I am more apt to man up there if
I need to. Make an amends or an apology.
Its our retraining and reparenting center
For many of us.
(((crau))) - I agree with marandac - the hardest transitions in my life were made less painful with the help of this program and the support and fellowship I found at meetings. The more I work on me, the better all things appear to be. The 'all things' has nothing to do with others I care about, live with or love - but have everything to do with how I feel, how I think, my attitudes and most of all my self-confidence and self-esteem.
The program does work well when we can accept where we are, learn from our past and others and then gently put one foot in front of the other, trusting in a HP to get us where he wants us to be. For me, the hardest days are the days when my will raises to the surface and I feel cheated by life/others. I need to do whatever I can at that point to change my thinking - meetings, readings, sponsor or trusted friends.
I am so sorry you are having a bad moment in a day. Lean into your recovery and your program and just let go of anything not relevant to the right here/now.
(((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
My self will kept me stuck with What was
not good or healthy For me. I just could
not see beyond It. I wanted my life fixed
and better. It was not going to happen
The way i wanted.
I had to let go of my reins and Trust God.
Trust is a big issue and it takes time to get
There along with self love and self acceptance.
Everything just goes together and eventually
Comes together as we get emotionally and
Spiritually strong.
I still have pain and hurt thats a one day at
A time, my HP holds my hand.
