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That you straight out ask an alcoholic if they are insane/liars/psychologically unwell? The a in question is my parent. Her bills aren't paid, she's slurring her words at 10am on a Monday morning,can't remember dates etc and is full of the isms. I really couldn't help myself from asking her if she's gone the way of a few others we know, where fantasy has become reality. Of course the ultra insane party must be myself since I keep expecting an honest reply. Honest being impossible for many reasons. Sigh. Sometimes though the whole full of poo aspect of alcoholism is really irritating.
Thanks ladies. You are right Betty. It's easy for me to feel all sanctimonious......good old saint me still sniffs away down there somewhere lol. Its very different being 34 and having my programme. That part of me which wants to fix is still there, but its not so desperate. I did end up saying again that I love her but I can't be near her not even on the phone because her alcoholism drives me mad. Which it does. after these intense years with the kids and ah driving me back to Alanon I can see the isms so clearly and I want to shake her!!!!! No point. Mother and I have done this role swap thing for years. I guess I'll just wait it out and pray to my hp. I am OK. I am even OK with being powerless. Kind of a releif to hand over such a heavy task, was never mine anyway. Xx
I have also been 'there' - and in my world, it seems that the 'natives are/were restless at the same time'.....My kids were active and bringing chaos/drama into my home, my AH was distant/sneaking-drinking and my mother became irresponsible with her daily cocktail hour being earlier and earlier and ...
These were the times when I would literally lock myself in my room with literature and/or a good book and ask God if the whole world had gone mad!!! I know the insanity that this disease brings often appears to be too much and totally insane and am so grateful for the slogan, "This too shall pass." I also still have a part of me that wants to fix everyone my way and have peace and harmony - so I have to return to step 1, and again own my powerlessness and my own insanity and lastly ask God to lead/relieve me of my own mental chaos.
(((Hugs))) - I get it and am sending you (((hugs))), positive thoughts and prayers!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
The natives were restless, lol and yes. I had an extremely lovely day yesterday, and evening. I bought a liane Moriarty paperback and devoured it along with a bag of peanut m'n'm's after the kids went to bed. It was so lovely I want to do it again! Thanks for the reassurance IAH.
-- Edited by Iamhere on Sunday 31st of January 2021 01:03:40 PM
I have to say that Peanut MnMs are my favorite too.....I truly had to stop buying them because I would eat the whole package! Can you addictive personality? *sigh* - wish I knew how to moderate some things but for me - they were as addictive as other substances/things and I just stopped buying them.
My latest crave, which is healthier, is yogurt - usually vanilla or a boston cream pie with dark chocolate chips thrown in.....darn good!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
