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Today is a what the heck day. I am grateful for my recovery. I just need a bit of sunshine. I guess sometimes just one day of rain can upset me. I can't get on my swing. I can't spend time away from the monotony. I want to have a solid do nothing day sometimes but today I need to do something productive. So I won't spend my time or too much of it on the internet. I have to keep reminding myself that the world doesn't revolve around me & that I am just a small part of the whole picture.
I have a tendency to complain. I don't know why. I am actually pretty satisfied w/ my simple life. I tend to forget that I never had it so good.My Ah seems to remind me that I shouldn't complain. I shouldn't feel cheated. I am sure that he is right.
These days we are helping a man that we know through the program to get back on his feet. He was in prison for 3 1/2 years. We have always been a support system for him. He basically has no friends here locally. He has a fear that he might go back. He doesn't feel comfortable going places that might cause him to run into people that he has a restraining order w/. In a nutshell, he really only has us & one other guy who he lives w/. This guy drinks on the sly & claims to have over 10 years sober. I for one am disturbed by this. It is not my life. It is just that we are so involved. Maybe too much.
As I sit here, I realize that I wasn't planning on mentioning this subject. I think I have or I know I have mentioned him before.
I just want to be of service. He won't have a free ride. He won't have it easy because he is a felon.
So, as I go through today, I will remember to stay on my side of the street & keep it clean.
Hey Kathleen - good to 'see' you today. I can understand why the info. you shared would bother you - it would bother me too. It's a risk for your felon friend and it's a lack of personal integrity. Being a double winner, it does happen - as we say, we're not all here because we are happy, healthy and whole - we're just trying to get honest and stay sober.
I too have a better outlook when the sun shines vs. cloudy/rainy days. I am grateful that today we have sunshine here - hope it spreads your way soon!
I have to be cautious about 'helping others' - I sometimes still get way too involved, from a good place in my heart - however, I have to be very program focused when I am helping someone to ensure I just help and not overstep. I guess that might always be there - hopefully as I keep applying the program principles I'll do better, but I do pick up other's moods/fears when I am trying to be of service.
Hope your day is lovely and so glad for your share. Nice to know I am not unique in some of my defects still in need of practice/work.
(((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
