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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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Today's reading is a focus on our slogan "Let Go and Let God". The writer acknowledges when her A left their home, she was very good at the first part of the slogan and let everything go- friends, meetings, readings. She, like many of us (at least initially) believed if the A were out of her life, the disease would be. It took me a good while to see and accept that the MY disease got me where I was and where I am and where I will go.
The second part of our slogan "Let God" can still be so difficult for me! Turns out I am a willful son of a gun! But there's a sentence in this reading I will focus on to help me with that: ' "Let God" balances the first part and keeps me from proceeding with my own will.' The thought for the day is also a reminder- if we are letting go we need to give it to a Power greater than ourselves.
Today I will work on accepting that I can let go and Let God. My will doesn't come first! Hope everyone has a great Tuesday.
Great reminder. I too let my program go over and over now that I don't live with my A partner and then wonder why I feel low....you'd think I would learn!!
It is a lot easier to let go of the willful stuff by handing it to HP. Funny, I used to associate having a HP with feeling guilt, stress and worry and now it's the complete opposite.
Thanks for the reminder, and Happy Tuesday back at you
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
Happy Thursday Mary,
Thanks for posting your reflections on today's reading in HFT . Let Go and let God is a powerful tool and one I had difficulty with in the beginning of program.
My will was intrenched and letting go, felt so painful and foolish (After all if I let go how could I force my will and get my way God might not want to give me what I Needed)
After much pain , I used the slogan, in desperation and I felt as if I was dangling over a cliff and when I let go I could feel myself falling into that bottomless pit and then all of a sudden I stopped falling and felt myself being buoyed up by an incredible force that I could feel sustained me and had my best interest at heart (I believe this was on of my Spiritual experiences).
I can now "Let go and let God by simply saying:"I cannot, He can, I think I will let him" This is the first 3 Steps in a simple format and I love simple.
Thanks Mary for the lovely daily summary and your ESH. I too am a willful person. I and that defect have improved dramatically with the help of the program, and at first it was difficult and now it can be a relief. Letting Go and Letting God has set me free over and over and over again as I go through my recovery. It gives me the freedom to turn the focus back on me, my actions, my reactions, my attitudes and my feelings.
Have a lovely day everyone and Let Go and let God, just for today - see how it works for you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
