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Today was a good day. Thinking back on past Easters and holidays I realized how lucky I am to have had this holiday with no drama. Having no contact with my AH has allowed me to heal in ways that I never thought possible. My kids say I seem more at ease and not stressed out. Just the sound of his voice can make my insides turn upside down. He has a way to draw me into his drama making me feel sorry for him. He is a mess and I think he likes it that way. It gets him attention. Looking back I see that he has always played the victim. Nothing was his fault, everyone else caused his drama. But he had a large voice in all of it. Never knowing when he would explode kept me walking on eggshells. I allowed this unacceptable behavior. I am learning now (4th step) that I did play a big part in our dysfunction. For this I am sorry.
Thank you, Betty... I think I am a work in process, too lol..and I do believe in miracles. I have seen so many since I started in this program. If I can just do nothing, God has been able to do many wonderful things for me. It has been very hard to let go of trying to control outcomes.. MIP
Happy Easter back at you! Great share, great awareness and you sound peaceful and full of awareness. (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
My ExAH was that way, always the center of the drama but never his fault. Yesterday my kids spent Easter with him and his family, myself and my RAH, went to do something non traditional and had a lot of fun. When we got home the kids were already home and said what a huge drama fest it was at their fathers. So glad I don't have to deal with that anymore. I was truly grateful for the peaceful non traditional blessed day
