The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have attended alanon over 15 years ago. Probably woudl have benefited from it since childhood and certainly could have continued participating all these years. Very helpful so not sure why it is taking me this long to get back and it is on recommendation from my therapist. I lost daughter to the disease of ETOH almost a year ago and as part of the healing process my therapist feels I need to work this program again. I know she is right. Having difficulty getting to a meeting so I thought I woudl start here. It is so hard not to blame yourself when you loose a child. That maternal instinct is so very strong to protect your children. I am also a nurse and have taken care of folks my whole life but couldn't take care of my own daughter. I know allt he right things to say, I just need to get them back into my heart and soul so I can be free and peaceful again. It is very difficult to separate the natural grief process I am going through from the dysfunctional co-dependency.
Although I have not drank in 19 years, I live with alcohol in my home and that feels like I am living with the demon that killed my daughter and how crazy is that?? Alcohol is such a big part of social life in my circle of family and friends and it sometimes it is hard for me. I just want to say, "Don't you know that killed my daughter."
Well, since I am new to this forum, I will see how this process works for me.
Welcome Peace Warrior There is a saying in alanon we all get here when we are ready and not a minute before. I am pleased that your therapist recommended that you try alanon once again and know that it will be of a great asset in your healing process. I am sorry for the loss of your daughter to this disease and can identify as I lost my son 9 years ago. This program saved my sanity and life.
Face to face meetings,are powerful but if you can not attend we have on line meetings here 2xs a day. They are held in the chat room and you will receive the support and understanding of those who understand as few others can> Livingone day at a time. the Steps and slogans all provided me with new constructive tools to rebuild my life .
You are not alone and there is hope
Welcome to MIP Peace Warrior - so glad you are here with us and so very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I am quite sure I can't even begin to imagine that pain, but wanted you to know you are not alone. We do our best to support each other - all affected by this progressive and fatal disease - Alcoholism.
I hope that you can find your peace again and that we can be a part of your journey.
Keep coming back - we're just a post away! (((Hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
