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AH got a final reprimand from work so might be losing his job (28 years with the company and 5 years from retiring). He says he didn't do anything wrong and his boss hates men. Really.... I've noticed lately he keeps asking me the same questions over and over again. The alcohol abuse must be impacting his memory.
I told him this morning I want to separate and sell the house as I can't live like this anymore. I really feel I deserve more even though I've done bad things in this marriage too. He asked for two more months to hopefully sober up but you know how that will go. I can't set any false expectations but I can survive another two months by detaching with love and living my life as best I can.
Just some thoughts.
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It is my responsibility alone to make the right choices. I will make the right choices today.
Im new to this but your story sounds familiar. My AH also asks me the same things over and over again. As well as lies to me constantly. Just this morning I was sleeping in my daughters room(who was spending the night at a friends house) and he came in early to wake her up for school. Ok he saw her yesterday and even gave his ok for her to sleep over. But, he was drinking so he forgot were his own daughter was..
You should keep strong and heal you!! Thats what i'm learning slowly. You matter! What helps me is i look at inspirational quotes and sayings to help strengthen your soul. I heard the same story from my AH. Now I'm in Al anon because he broke me. Gather your strength. Love you~!
Aloha I need peace and stay with the need for peace...Literature does wonders for that problem the daily readers and pamphlets helped me a ton when I was wandering thru that fog and when I read you post the Just For Today card/pamphlet spoke to me, "Just for today I will live thru this day only...I can do something for 24 hours that would appall me if I thought I had to do it for a life time". Or something close to that. Living in the moment for me rids me of the aches and pains of the past and the fear of the future. Keep coming back. (((((hugs)))))
