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A few days ago my A made some really bad decisions (so what else is new?) which resulted in a very dangerous situation where she could have been seriously victimized or even killed.
Actually, for a couple days before this, I knew she was moving into dangerous territory (it starts with binging, then she starts having anxiety so she adds some prescription drugs, then depression hits her and she won't leave her home for days, just stays in bed. Then she gets enough "motivation" to get out of bed, ends up at a bar, etc etc.) This time she left the bar late at night and started walkjng home in the rain and then she accepted a ride from someone she doesn't know. He attempted to assault her and she got away.
She was traumatized (but apparently not badly enough to keep her from being in a bar again 2 nights later).
I, too, was emotionally impacted realizing how much her drinking has caused her to deteriorate. This set my brain into "worry/imagining" mode big time-what might have happened if she hadn't gotten away nd what might happen next time drinking clouds her judgment.
I notice this stress causes me to be unable to concentrate and I attempt to self soothe by eating really junky carbohydrate foods. I read just last night that this is a common stress response.
Anyone else?
I think it's a very natural response to try and fill/feed however you want to view it the hole that is there, I mean let's look at the media portrayal of breakup's .. it's always a tub of ice cream or something indulgent to make the hurt go away.
Stress is an awful thing and it really is compounded when it's issues that I can't control. Other people is HUGE!!
Hugs S:)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
God this was soooo typical of my relationship with my alcoholic/addict wife...sooooo typical. Would it ever stop? Only when she made the choice to have it stop and I was no longer involved...God had me. Sad, Sick and Scary....((((hugs))))
