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got up today with stuff i need to do but feel anxious. i have suffered from anxiety,panic attacks,agoraphobia since i was 17,im 58 now. since then i am on my own, i have to deal with this. I sometimes revert to these old tapes of feeling im imposing on people or im not good enough. like i have to leave for 4hrs for landlady to debug apt and i asked new boyfriend to help me by taking me tto his house with cat. i feel like i shouldnt have asked even though he said that he could and will.
i just feel all shaky and unsure today,hpe it will pass. also waiting on if i get this job i applied for. all frazzled today...
I'm sorry you're having anxiety today. We're using Alanon when we ask for help. It may be a good thing that you asked your new bf to help you by letting you and your cat wait at his place. None of us are perfect people - not perfect physically, emotionally or spiritually. We never will be. Thankfully, we don't have to be. Our higher power loves us unconditionally. Loving ourselves unconditionally can be harder on some days than others. It's definitely harder for me on days when I'm not feeling well. Those are the times lovingly accepting where I am at is all the more important. Those are the days I need to be gentlest with myself, reach out to my higher power, other people and use the Serenity Prayer as a tool for letting go and letting god. Reading our little books especially spiritual readings sometimes helps me when I feel anxious or worried. Try not to concern yourself about the job you applied for. Honestly, I'm in the same boat but have turned that over to my hp because I don't want to be obsessing about it. I have to believe that the god of my understanding is going to lead me to the best job for me. If I don't keep this belief in front of me, I won't be able to stay in the moment. I hope you find some comfort today with your new bf and your sweet pet cat. Feel better soon. ((((hugs)))) TT
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(((Alyce))) - so very sorry for what you woke with. I've been a bit 'off' also for a few days, and it started without a trigger. The last 3 days, I've woken fine, but have gotten zittery after my morning routine. I also have hypoglycemia that flairs at times, and they both 'act' the same. So, I've been close to home as I can't risk having a panic attack or low blood sugar while driving - just not safe.
It's given me time to be lazy (rest), read literature and catch up on some shows I had recorded. It was better today but still there.....My hope is yours passes and we're both back to 100% very soon! I always feel that God is telling me to chill a bit when I don't feel 100%. I take the cue and try to rest/relax as that's not my normal MO at all.
Huge Hugs to you, prayers for healing and positive thoughts from me to you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
thank all of u for giving me support. feel a bit better after a pity party cry, my nieces surprise phonecall and the realization that "normies" would feel lots of stress with divorce,moving,job loss. i suppose im doing ok in light of that being a nervous nellie
hugs
alyce
Hey Yarncrazy! Me too! God, SO anxious! My panic attacks started again last week as a reaction to a drug the doctor prescribed me a while back. Couldn't go to work and couldn't sleep last night and all together not feeling well. Hopefully it will pass soon!
