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You know I keep thinking I wonder if I'm going to win this mondo jackpot that is brewing based upon the financial craziness that is going on in my life.
It's not awful .. it's not great however it could always be better. So I was suppose to get an automatic deposit to my checking account this week. For some reason I just had a feeling something was not right, meaning that I just knew this was not going off without a hitch. So out of the blue I call my bank which by the way my account has been active however not seriously active .. I have about 2$ in my account. Next thing I know I'm being told my account has been closed and maybe they could do something if I came in .. I laughed and said good luck with that, .. I'm no longer in the same state. Anyway, long story short we are all waiting, my payroll department, my bank and so on they apparently jumped the gun when they closed the account and have pretty much admitted that part of the deal. So somewhere in cyber space sits a check I really need. I did make sure we have a roof over our heads, we have food, and I have a little cash, this was NOT what I had in mind in the least this week.
It irritates me a great deal to call and not get a call back, all I know is that they will either have to force the deposit through and/or cut a live check and overnight it to me. So it certainly keeps things exciting. I am just baffled at times at the universes warped sense of humor. The kids kind of looked at me and said aren't you mad .. and really no I'm not .. I mean it is frustrating .. it is totally one of those things I can't control and things will take care of themselves as they are suppose to, I can't make anything happen over the weekend. I have a couple sources that will help me get through the weekend and next week I can get some progress done.
I am totally hoping that tonight my deposit goes through because that would be a good thing .. LOL. Alanon has taught me to roll with the waves, adjust my sails so I'm not fighting the natural flow of things. I would be far more stressed if I wasn't confident I had some very good people in my life who know I'm very good for the money. I'm fed over the weekend it's just making sure the kids have food.
By the way I plan on winning that lotto stock pile .. some friends and I are all going in on it. We each are purchasing one ticket to be split based upon the winnings.
I figure something has got to be a good thing .. LOL!
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Oh girl......you are handling this so very, very well. Great to see your program in action and your awareness that trusting the process is the next right thing to do!!
My hope is that your check is deposited soon and all is 'well' again in the financial universe around you all.
Gr8 to see you are rolling with it all!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
SerinityRUS...you have some steep competition for the jackpot. I am eyeing it too. If I win I will send a few million your way. lol I love your quote about adjusting your sails and rolling with the waves.
Big hugs and I'm so sending u hope and prayers. You're doing an amazing job and u inspire me!!!
(((serenity)))
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
(((Serenity)) I have been told that each new challenge that I face, with courage makes me stronger. Early on, I doubted that that I needed to be so strong but after walking through the fire and coming out on the other side ,I can be grateful for the lessons. You are doing great.
I am sooo grateful for this program on so many levels. It really has been a week. I called the bank and everything is ok with my check, .. however in the process of closing my account they cancelled my debit card .. lol. Lovely to have money I can't get to although it sure does help me save money .. LOL!! I should have my debit card next week. Taking a large breath and I would not be so calm except I know that the child support is already coming from the County (it goes from the county to the state). I had to make not a nice text about what happened the previous week to the NW. I was very nice however pretty much the message was he's once again not doing what he's suppose to be doing. She obviously doesn't like my texts so at this point he's back on track .. he really has to be monitored or he will slide.
The joke I was telling about winning the lottery I would be the first person to win that the money got stuck in cyber space .. LMAO!! Yup I won .. however I can't get to the money .. LOL.
Work has been long hours and it is taking its toll on the department. I'm grateful I can stay out of most of it. Unfortunately it's one of those things that the people who are being pulled or starting drama do not understand they are doing exactly what the boss across the street wants .. he wants in-fighting he wants the drama and he wants the work done. I am extremely disappointed with the whole situation. I got a frantic call from one of the assistant controllers yesterday that apparently after I left, everything blew up, nothing to do with anything I personally did or didn't do .. apparently I bring a sense of calm and tension relief to the department. Maybe more of a morale booster of sorts is a better way to describe how I am viewed, well as soon as I left the buffer was gone and some acting out happened which has been an undercurrent going on. It was ugly and honestly I have my doubts as to how long this person is going to stick around. Well boss guy gets what he wants all of the dysfunction and none of the responsibility of being a root cause.
It's still a good enough job for me right now to stick it out and learn what I can learn. I am going to put my big toe back in the water for something else and really pick and choose what I want to do. I figure that the God of my understanding has given me a place to get on my feet and I just need to listen with my soul and make my move when I see that it's right. Maybe things will settle down however not what I'm seeing. As my son says a lot can change in 90 days .. lol.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
You sound so good! That was a smart move
to go to Texas and all the good that it has brought
you so far. Your healthy attitude towards adversity
and stepping over it and then moving on, love it!
