I really like the just for today poem. I wrote it out and read it often. The part that really gets me is the part about "just for today I will take my luck as it comes and try to fit myself to it". It gets me because it wss such a forign concept to me. I've been waking up each morning and saying this to myself out loud if I have to. It is making a huge change for me. I used to be the kind of person who would blame my misfortune bad day and all my failures on other people and other situations. I can still fall quickly into it. I had bad day because I didn't sleep well. I didn't get the promotion because those hiring aren't fair. I had an answer for everything and everything that went wrong was someone else or something else's fault. I took the good things for granted a lot of the time and didn't appreciate them. I resented every bad thing that happened to me and every good thing that happened to everyone else. Those could be bad things that happened to me. I could be a real pill. Anyway I've been doing this and these are some of the things that are changing. I regularly have insomnia. Last night was a difficult night. I finally went to bed at 1am. At 5am my husband woke me up. I would normally have been upset complaining all day about how I can't sleep. How no one let's me sleep etc etc. It would have been an excuse for not getting things done for being as miserable as I wanted etc. Instead I simply told him I needed a bit more sleep. We both fell back asleep and woke up LATE a few hours later. Instead of cursing my bad luck I chose to be thankful for the extra rest I desperately needed to get through the day. I had to hustle to get to work on time and I was admittedly a little late but it certainly wasn't the end of the world and I felt refreshed. I had been crossing my fingers about getting something at work approved that would make my life easier. In the past I would have felt entitled to it and demanded it or just quietly harbored resentment if I didn't get it. Things had been back and forth about it but because I decided to "take my luck as it comes" I didn't have the emotional ups and downs about it I would have had in the past. I was pleased to find it worked out in my favor but I was also even more pleased that I handled it so well. I expressed gratitude and my boss was happy to do it for me. Before al anon I would have had a very stressful day. I would have been on pins and needles about the outcome at work anticipating negative consequences half a year in the future. But changing my perspective and focusing on just for today I'm just fine. And I know if things hadn't worked out for me I would have figured things out trusting in HP and myself to figure out what is best. I know they are small examples but they are huge for me. I feel like a slight shift in attitude has changed my life for the better. Today was a good day even if I didn't get the best sleep. Even if I was late for work. Even if there is a mountain of work I didn't get done today. I'm celebration the positives and accepting the negatives.