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caught a cold sunday. guess i was having too much fun lol today, i went through this poor me phase followed by anger followed by being p offed that xah woke me up at 1am to want me to make hotel reservations at a casino so he can drive drunk,got drunker,lose his money and get into more trouble in his unsured car and warrent on him 2x self..what a mouthful. AH will be now known as xah even though divorce still in process. I straightened myself out by an out loud talk with myself andd im ok now. im through with expectations of people esp of xah and new/old friends. ill be grateful for small favors. thank hp for alanon and for me and stronger self.
also was going through 2o yrs of my diary and realize i shouldnt have married xah..but that is water drowning the bridge lol
hanging in there and going to doc tomorow by myself
Aaaannnnddd .. you will go through all of it all over again it's a process, as you go through the stages it will be less intense and leave you feeling less exhausted .. at least that is how it worked for me. Each time I came back through the storm much stronger than I went in it. I still do from time to time, not really about the XAH more about where I am at and finding my footing .. it's ok .. it just is.
I'm so glad you are here :)
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Hey Alyce - so sorry your cold has you 'down'....I know that my mind tends to make good things look less than good when I feel crappy.....Take care of you and get healthy!
Once upon a time, my ASon called @ 3am to tell me he was parked in a parking lot, and thought the clutch was going out in the car. I asked a couple question about the car and then asked why he called me in the middle of the night. He said because I owned the car and he was afraid to drive it...I suggested that he call whomever he had just been out with for a ride or to drive home - I wasn't coming out in the middle of the night for a car that 'might' be about to die...
From that night on, I turn my phone ringer off at night. I figure if it's an emergency, someone will knock on the door. Otherwise, my middle of the night calls have not been anything that couldn't wait until morning or resolve themselves by morning. Just sharing - it's been nice to not have 'that' happening too!
(((Hugs))) - feel better soon!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
