Hello my dear friends..

All those prayers worked!!!
Yesterday when I went to see hubby he was mentally back :) (almost)
He was sitting up eating, and said "HI, little one". That was sooooo good to hear. He has said that to me for years so I knew he was feeliing much better.
He asked if I'd help him with a shower and he did that by himself as I stood outside the curtain. I shaved him and combed his hair (the way I like it)..lol

He was able to tell me that the Dr. was in and what he said. What a relief!!! He did say a few things that weren't correct, but it's probably hard for him to decipher what was real and what wasn't this last week.
I'm sure he'll be there a few more days, he is still having trouble with his blood pressure. It sky rockets, then plummets. Once they get that stablized I think he'll be able to come home.

We've been dealing with all this for a month. Time and time again I've seen HP at work. The first time when he originally detoxed, my daughter just happened to go back and see if he wanted anything to drink and got him to ER immediately.
This last time, on the way to see the Dr. we stopped by his office to get the BP cuff and it is what alerted me the next morning to take him back to the ER.

There's so much more when I stop and think about it.
My A was able to spend time with his Mom over Christmas. She is failing but I think he mentally said his Goodbye's then. It will be a miracle if he gets well enough to travel to Michigan in time again.
...We found a car for my son a couple weeks before he got his lisence. Through this time our son was able to get himself to all the places I usually run him around to, even buy some groceries, food he was able to fix himself.
HP had it all figured out...he let me know he was there numerous times, even with little things.
There was one day in particular when I had been at the hospital all day and most of the night. I came home and slept for a few hours and went back. I could see from the main road that the parking lot was really full. I was really tired and stressed, the thought of endlessly driving around the parking lot to find a spot didn't appeal much to me and at that point about anything could bring me to tears.
I recall saying, "Sure would be nice if I could find a spot to park HP, I'm so tired". As I got right in front of the entrance someone pulled out of their parking space. The only place closer would be the handicapped parking. Heck, I would have been happy with a place in the back. I guess HP knew I could use a tiny miracle that day. I'm thoroughly convinced that it was not just luck.
These little things happen all the time. Maybe they did before and I didn't recognize them but I sure do now and I make sure to send out a Thank You to HP.

My daughter said to me when he was in renal failure, "Mom, you are going to have to face that this may be it for him cuz it doesn't look good at all".
I said, you know....HP has got him to the hospital now 2x by pure coincidence...I really don't think so.
She told me I was in denial..lol

Anyway..wanted to let y'all know that hubby seems to be on the road back to recovery.
The nurse read me the Dr's notes. It said : Talked with patient about seeking help with alcohol addiction, patient readily agrees and will seek help when physically able.

One of my biggest problems this last year was to give up" the dream" of what we could have together. There was never a question of whether we loved eachother. I kept trying and trying to let go of what I knew we could have but didn't exist.
Now I think maybe I couldn't let it go because I wasn't supposed to.

I met with some Alanon friends at Pizza Hut last night before my f2f. One of them said.."Just think of what a great recovery story you are going to share some day as a speaker."

hehe...maybe some day!!

Love you all
Christy