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I have tov write to handle my panuc. It seems since making this monumental decion mornig pani is my new standard and it scres me. Ive always been a status quo type. . Home is my sactuary. . But in the mirning i wake up sick to my stomach, shaking and forcing myself to breathe. . I know its going to get worse before it gets better. I can barely type due tothe jittery feeling, the sick feeling. My life is going to undergo a MAJORchange and im afraid.
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When all else fails...there is Faith, Hope and Prayer.
Of course you are apprehensive of change. We all are. Just live in the minute for now and look to the future. You are doing this to protect your future and your peace of mind and you will get through it.
Change is always difficult, please work the program and attend meetings, those will really help you. Wishing you the peace and serenity that the Al-anon program gives you.
-- Edited by Debb on Monday 2nd of November 2015 06:26:20 AM
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"Forgiveness doesn't excuse bad behavior, but it
does prevent bad behavior from destroying your heart". ~ unknown
((TOC))) anticipating change is disturbing. I assure you that "Change for the better" is more than manageable especially with the help of HP and the serenity prayer.
Feeling the safety and sanctiy of your home will return once again in your new place and you will be happy.
Been there done that !!!
The first few weeks after I threw my ex out of the house....I felt panic, lots of it. But then...as day turned to night, night turned to day....I started feeling like, why should I feel this way? I'm scared..yep. This is my first time ever in my life being on my own...parenting on my own, living on my own, doing everything on my own....not having him, or my parents (who had both passed on) to fall back on...to help with everything....to anything. It was me. So, okay world...here I am. I'm going to do this. I'm not going to let being scared get in my way. I can do this. Why not? I'm a grown woman. I'm going to succeed in this...and by God...I'll do it my way too. I got this. Don't tell me I can't do this. I can do anything was the attitude I adapted. And I'll tell you what sweetie....it's liberating....and it's called freedom....and it's breathtakingly WONDERFUL.... :)
Oh, and ps....WRITE all the time....I did that....I still do......good or bad, pretty or ugly....writing it down made it get out of me. I didn't find myself panicking as much, worrying as much, and even sometimes found an answer within myself when reading back what I was getting out...sort of becoming my own higher power :)
-- Edited by sandollars on Monday 2nd of November 2015 07:56:11 AM