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Still no job and trying not to go on meltdown mode, we are making due and doing ok. It's just kind of scary. It is what it is and I will get to where I need to be .. it's the flipping waiting that is driving me crazy.
Some funny things that happened is having as much free time as I do I have to get out of the apartment knowing I will be staring at the walls over and over .. lol. Well, I have been shooting a lot of pool and it's free so it's no cost to me, .. lol .. there are times the gender issue is a good thing. I am the only woman in this place shooting, so I get to shoot for free .. LOL.
Anyway, I have been getting pointers and I hadn't realized how much notice I had been getting .. after all I tend to try and blend in because I am the only woman in this place .. lol. I actually reached out to one of the older players and he has been giving me suggestions and it has improved my game greatly and honestly .. it's funny because I know this stuff I had forgotten so this is a great refresher course. Yesterday he wasn't there, so I just hung out on my own practicing his suggestions. Out of the blue a guy scared the life out of me .. lol .. he was friendly and asked my name and introduced himself. Started asking me if I knew about the tournaments yesterday and this evening. I was so shocked I was a little speechless which is hard to do to me .. I always have some response back .. lol. I was embarrassed it just caught me so off guard. Nothing like hearing you are being watched and yet it's a very nice compliment. My most embarrassing moment came a little later I knew the guys were playing one pocket which the only way to explain that game is chess on a table with pool balls. It's the game the old timers play when they are bored with 8 ball and 9 ball. So here I am bopping to my music I'm always plugged in to drown out the activity. I hear the game stop a couple of times and I now am very aware of being watched .. lol. This long timer went to take a shot (I'm catching this literally out of the corner of my eye) and it made me giggle because I guess I must have made some shot that was on purpose .. lol .. and the guys at the table are now watching my play and commenting on it .. I'm not listening to it. Well, he literally brought the game to a stop waits for me to make my shot and then waits again THEN makes his shot .. he was not pleased .. lol. It was an exaggerated play out and I totally ignored them all .. all I know is the guys all started laughing loudly knowing how irritated he was. I played for about 5 hours yesterday and I'm paying for it today .. LOL .. I'm not 20 anymore. It was so worth it!!
So I am going to check out the tourney .. I might play we'll see .. it's a lot of money and I would like to really see the competition before deciding .. I'm good .. I'm unsure of HOW good .. LOL. It's big money though and a low entry fee. We'll see. I need to shoot some games with some people. I may do that today for a bit. I have a bunch of interviews I have gone out for that I haven't heard anything yet. Sooooo .. keep your fingers crossed the one I really want would be a great sponsor for me and YES .. LOL .. I'm so thinking that way.
We'll see.
Hugs S :)
PS - Kids are doing great I get their 3 week reports this week and will see how that all adds up. My daughter just started practicing for wrestling and I'm so glad she's doing it .. 4 hour practice after school .. girl could barely move. This is sooo good for her and I have been very clear with her if I feel this is a health risk regarding her weight meaning they start pushing her to do crazy stuff to drop weight I will be having words with her coach. I have already let the coach know she either makes her weight or not I will support her in a healthy way .. there will be no pushing bizzaro stuff though.
My boy is doing very well too .. he's just way to funny. I love that kiddo .. he seems to be making friends and finding his own pace. He's also enjoying his athletics program as well as his choir stuff.
I have court on the 21st I had thought it was the 18th .. here's hoping this is done sooner than later.
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Serenity- Re wrestling. DS wrestled high school and college and post college. He was a state champ. The cutting weight became an obsession with so many of the wrestlers. He regrets it now because there were so many nights that he was in a terrible mood because he was starving. On the way to weigh ins for tournaments, they all sat on the bus spitting into cups to get rid of the last 1/8 of an ounce, and then as soon as they made weight, it was time to eat and drink lots. It was much worse than I knew. We fought. I lost. The coach did not back up the parents. Apparently there are new rules now re cutting weight, but I hear there are ways to get around them. It's a great sport, but there is a downside too. I hope your daughter enjoys it and you get to the matches. It's a great place to meet parents. I made great friends as a wrestling mother.
-- Edited by laurab on Wednesday 16th of September 2015 05:02:04 PM
Serenity - sounds like you are finding things to do for you while you have some 'waiting' time! Kudos - enjoy, enjoy, enjoy!
I am glad to hear the kids are adjusting so well....to me, that says the choice has been a good thing.
I agree with Debb - HP's got you - in his time, you will be blessed!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
