The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
(((Mirandac))) I do hear you and have "closed" the posting. It is not necessary for you to respond to the post again. Please rest assured that you had no need to make an amend here as we are all free to express our concerns and fears so as to grow and learn.
Glad you are here.
Mirandac, I agree with Betty, this no need to feel sorry, I never felt that your post was inappropriate. You should be able to speak freely whenever you need to.
-- Edited by Debb on Monday 14th of September 2015 04:42:33 AM
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"Forgiveness doesn't excuse bad behavior, but it
does prevent bad behavior from destroying your heart". ~ unknown
I too agree that it's all good and no amends is necessary! One of the reasons why we are so close here is that we can agree and disagree with respect and honor.
We all 'hear' and 'receive' differently and that is OK. (((Hugs))) to you - do not feel bad, you have the same right and anybody to stand in your truth.
Happy Monday to one and all!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Thank you all. I know what i have been thru with my ex and it has
Colored and changed me in ways i never thought possible.
My whole world was turned upside down.
There was So much damage done and i never saw it coming at me. I am
crying Even having to admit that. I was just a little house wife minding
My own business always keeping the bad guys out our life. Our life
ran very smooth Till it all changed.
Then to find my Own Husband was a bad guy that he felt hate
toward me and our Life and what was lurking in his mind and
Soul. There was so much darkness I did not see it coming.
So i guess i was projecting my problems, fears and unresolved
Issues with my xah. I do fear the dark side of humanity and
the devil. It scares me. I know its out there just do not want it
Near me.
Thank you all for your love and support. One day at a time.
It was a shock to me when I admitted that the person that I was protecting myself from was my husband. It took a lot to admit it and to come to terms with it and if I'm honest I have not quite done that yet. Go gently with yourself Mirandac. Sending ((((((hugs)))))))
-- Edited by milkwood on Monday 14th of September 2015 09:58:19 AM
((Mirandac)) You are not alone and I am sure that I, as well as many others can identify.
Alanon sharing , as well as the Steps and the intimate support of a sponsor are all designed to help uncover the destructive unconscious damage that was caused from living with the disease of alcoholism.
Remember the 3As-- Awareness is the first step-- we must see the damage first before we can move forward. Accepting what we find is equally important so you are doing fine.
As today's reading in the C2C states: One day at a time, Hope , Faith and trust will be restored.
(((Mirandac))) - I can so relate to what you shared. This disease brings about knowledge of things that I truly wish I did not know. I remember days when I seriously wanted to just stay under the covers as my outlook was so dark/gloomy as a result of the damage brought about from this disease.
It takes time to realize that this disease doesn't own us. It does control us if we allow it to and it will consume us if we don't chase recovery. My peace has only resulted from working this program, accepting help and support from trusted friends and allowing God to lead me to a different way.
There is hope and there is a light shining brightly for you and all of us. Just keep working your program one day at a time.
I too am lifting you up in prayer.
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I was just sitting here thinking, God give Me
the courage. I seemed to get stalled on my
recovery Work with the word abuse. It is such
an ugly word and it is filled with shame for
Allowing it and not seeing it clearly.
I come from abuse so does my Xah. I thought
We had moved thru all that. We protected our
Life and marriage for years. Had each others
Back at all times. We had a very strong bond.
Then things started going south. I guess its
The path of an untreated alcoholic marriage
except he Was dry.
I thought i was safe and loved and it was
Forever. I was wrong on each count.
I am Learning to trust God then myself.
Thank you all for your loving support.
Milkwood i hear you. It does something to
Your heart and soul.
Thank you reality. I just wanted to end
The thread. We all have our demons that
we need to slay in different ways. My xah
Was a shining example of what not to do
In AA.
I am so glad for this program. I go to
A wonderful drug and alcohol therapist.
She tells me things yet any real changes
And growing happen to me in alanon.
Also Being around religious people has
helped Me trust God. I found my soul
Again. Its amazing how you do not even
Notice things like that are Missing or
Lost.
I am very glad you are here. I have watched you grow over the past few months. We are all wounded in many ways. We move forward a few steps and go backward a couple of steps. One day at a time. I think you are doing really well. Take care and don't be so hard on yourself! Hugs, Jenny
One of my clients said you look Much
better more chipper. I am starting to
Feel like myself.
Emotional pain wears you down and
Ages you. I want to be happy again,
Inside and out.
I am just letting my self be still and
Doing my recovery in a slow steady
Way. My demons are still there so
is God. Its amazing the difference
that Makes.
Miranda - I've had a similar experience. Several months back one word that was used during an on line meeting opened my emotional flood gates! LOL It was powerful to see that there are triggers there I didn't even know I had. But what was wonderful is that once I realized what was actually going on (what movie in my head did that word push the play button on?) - I quickly found my center and received support from people on the board and was able to let it go. I'm glad this is a safe place. It's also a place where it's ok to work through our stuff with the program and the steps and then watch the healing begin! :) (((hugs)))
I think one thing we all have in common is knowing that these relationships we have that bring us to Al Anon do not leave us unscathed. We all have moments we regret things that color our perceptions. But I think that makes everyone of us all understanding too. I didn't read the post you referred to but please don't le that stop you from your path to recovery. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will keep making progress. :)
