So I have been reminded that I am so not in control .. my car has been out of commission since last week.  My girlfriend's husband who I just don't like and I think I figured it out .. there is part me and part he reminds me of my XAH.  God has a wicked sense of humor .. lol .. the husband offered to fix my car for free which was very nice.  I needed to have a starter replaced.  Here was the rub.  He also needed to do their car as well .. ironically it was their starter.  He works nights so I didn't say much as he said he couldn't work on it until Saturday.  That was fine because I did not have any money as XAH has not paid support for 3 weeks going on 4.  Which is just sad .. my XAH is just a straight up idiot.  He waited until I left town to pull this crap and that is the last time I have received payment.  Not to mention he's paid on a weekly basis so I should also be receiving money weekly as well.  Once again .. I'm an odd duck .. he's got a job him and his NW make 6 figures you are dang straight he's going to pay me.  I digress at the moment so back to the fact I am without funds and still looking for work which is coming .. just slowly at the moment.  Anyway .. I finally get the funds for the starter, get the starter and Saturday comes and goes .. the cars are not fixed .. Sunday same song and dance .. now Monday and again .. here I am with no car and no way to get around town easily .. and I'm just trying to bide my time.  Now the reason I know it's the starter is because I went to an auto place and this is what I have been told based upon their testing .. I told the kid are you sure?  I swear it sounds like the battery to me so I'm just confused. 

Now .. Tuesday comes and still no starter .. by now I'm not a happy kiddo and I keep hearing oh tomorrow, oh tonight, oh tomorrow .. Monday night was so not fun as I get a text from my girlfriend asking if I wanted to go grocery shopping at 1AM.  Umm .... NOT really however what choice do I have .. so I have to get up and get out.  I am so not pleased in the least.  So .. I go and I try to figure out what is going on.  I am feeling resentful about all of this .. 3 day weekend and the kids and I are stuck in the place we are staying .. it's to hot to go walking and I'm starting to go stir crazy I can only imagine how the kids are feeling. 

I have missed in the last 7 days both kids open houses which I never miss and here it is the first year at a new school and I actually needed to talk to the teachers and would like them to know me and know my kids.  Today the bus was late, I have an interview I could have had two however since my car is down I had to cancel one of them .. my son's bus was late and that's when the car situation just hit me hard .. I have NO way to get my kids to and from school if something happens I can't pick them up, I'm relying on a ride from people who are completely unreliable as far as I'm concerned and I've had enough.  PLUS I get to deal with the DA XAH who I am completely ticked off at by now as still no money. 

So I call AAA .. which I was going to do in the first place until I found out that the starter is what the issue is and I was going to just deal with that .. which by the way I know where it goes and how to get it on the issue is I can't because I can't get the car up high enough or stable enough to do it.  So AAA comes out .. the poor guy looks at me and says honey .. that is your battery .. LOL .. UGH .. serious?  He makes another call and gets another guy out because at this point I'm ready to have him tow my car to a garage and have them place the starter in.  Guy comes out changes out the battery looks and me and say yup .. that's your battery .. UGH!!!!  OK fine.  So this is something I could have fixed, I knew what the issue was and I let someone else talk me out of what I thought was wrong .. lesson much here?  Plus then I relied once again on people who are not operating in the same time zone as I am, I am up at 5am .. I am at least sleeping at 1AM not shopping.  I had to have a difficult discussion with my girlfriend about the fact (this was all before I knew it was the battery) I am not happy about this situation .. what I had to miss with the kids and that's just not how I choose to parent.  She's made different choices in her parenting and that's fine .. those aren't my choices and I didn't say that part to her I was just clear that I don't want this being an issue of resentment and it's just better if I deal with the situation.  I don't like relying on others for rides especially when it's well I don't know .. and I'll see if that works .. no .. I am trying to get a job .. I need my car up and running.  Point is this was a God thing .. and if the starter got replaced I would have had to replace the battery anyway .. so thank GOD it didn't get done it's just UGH .. I just need to listen to my gut in these situations instead of second guessing myself. 

In the meantime I am dealing with crazy XAH who going on 4 weeks of no child support is mad because I won't tell him what to do to fix it .. I fired him .. that's why we are divorced .. I no longer am required to think for him and if he wants someone else to think for him he has a new enabler let her figure it out.  I was very clear about this I mean seriously if I can figure out how to check if my support is there .. his part is the fact his wife has made the payment and he has all of the information it is not my job to figure it out. 

LOL .. I stopped things when I started to feel resentful and that is progress for me to be able to say this makes me feel icky.  As far as the X I probably could have been nicer however there is much more to that story I won't even get into suffice to say he just is an idiot who wants to take the softer easier way out.  Once again not have to do any work. 

Thanks for listening, S :)