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What a difference a year makes


This time last year, the fuel pump on my truck went in a smaller town outside the capitol city of the state where I live. I completely broke down, sobbing uncontrollably, because although I got the truck into a safe parking spot in a parking lot, it was after 9 pm and I didn't know who to call for a ride home, I didn't have money to get the truck towed, and I was entirely overwhelmed by the situation. Last fall, the ball bearing went on my wife's car while I was driving it, same town. That time, My dad had purchased AAA for me, so the major issue I had was working with my mother-in-law to figure out where to tow the car and explaining to the AAA call center where I was. The police officer who had his lights flashing and parked behind me finally took over to explain things to the call center worker, who really couldn't wrap her head around the fact that I was not located in the state of MN and therefore could not find the city. 

Yesterday, one of the gaskets blew on my new-to-me Kia. Outside that same town. As I was dealing with things, waiting for the tow truck, etc. I reflected on the difference a year makes. Although I have already used all of my roadside assistance calls this year and had to pay for the tow myself, this didn't put me in crisis mode, because I have over the past year built up a very small savings to help deal with things like this. I called my supervisor and left her voicemail updates without worrying about not being at work. I was able to reschedule my meetings from the car while I waited for the tow. I was able to get my truck started when we got the car back home and headed to work to continue with my day, most importantly without losing my serenity. 

The AAA call center still could not find me, and so I think next time I call (with vehicles as old as mine are, I am positive that there will be a next time) I am going to start with: "I live in Wisconsin. I am currently in Wisconsin, and I need to be towed within the state of Wisconsin." Maybe if I repeat the state often enough, We can start with the idea that I am not in Minnesota, lol! It really must be hard to find Madison if you are looking for it in Minnesota! 

The Kia, by the way, will be headed to Minnesota next, where my dad will decide whether the gaskets or the engine itself needs to be replaced. He seems excited about this new project, probably because he will need his garage space back to work on it, so my sister will have to finish sorting through her things and get them out of his garage before winter. It is times like this I wish I lived closer to home. I am going to miss out on all the fun of this car repair because I live too far away. 

I am forever thankful for AlAnon for helping me to develop the tools I need to hold on to my serenity in times like this. 

And, on the up side, I do not need to worry about replacing the cracked windshield right away. I can wait a while, give my wife a bit more time to sell enough baseball cards to be able to pay for the repair wink 



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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu



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Skorpi -

Thanks for your share - what a great reflection and so happy for you that you kept your peace and serenity while dealing with the car issue(s).

That's one area that I do not like dealing with - car repairs/issues. I always believe that I will be taken advantage of because I am a gal and while I've learned how to do many things, that's not one!!!

Kudos to you for taking the time to 'see' the program progress within your life.

Keep working it - it sure looks good on you!

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Lovely inspiring share Skorpi I appreciate your growth and that you have shared your recovery journey with us. What a big change in such a short time!! It sounds as if going forward your Dad will be able to help even more--- Win win for everyone. It is amazing how alanon tools just go deep down and when we need them they surface.
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I had something happen yesterday that I reflected on later and knew that, without program, I would have reponded differently.

Going to the beach in the morning, I brought out the recyclables with me along with a movie disc I intended to mail back. Being in a hurry , I threw everything in the recycling basket and went merrily on my way.

Driving to the beach, I remembered that i had discarded the movie and in an instant of panic wanted to drive back to search the trash and retrieve the disc. I stopped, said the serenity payer, and realized that it was not a big deal. I decided to continue to the beach, enjoy the day and notify the company when I returned home. I did just that.

The beach was fantastic and when I returned I notified the company and was told they would bill my CC for $14 and if I found the disc in 6 months it would be refunded . So simple --- no big deal I am so pleased that my alanon tools are so powerful I also love how we both could look back and see how we have changed Good work for us both.



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Thank you Skorpi, great share.

I had a similar moment a couple of months ago when the ceiling in our flat caved in. It was a challenge but I sat myself down, figured out what I could do and what the next right steps seemed to be. I asked for help and felt hugely grateful that the right people came into my life at the right time. A few days later the new ceiling was up and I found myself reflecting and thanking HP for throwing a challenge my way to show me that I could, indeed, cope with more than I thought at the time!

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Oh I so hear you Skorpi!! A day can make all of the difference in the world, a year is a lifetime of difference especially with the help of Alanon!!

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Love that you are reaping the benefits of Al-Anon and can look back on all that has happened
this past year and see how well you are doing. I agree, that because of Al-Anon and the tools
I am in a much better place!! Your ESH will shows us all just how the tools are working!
Congratulations!!

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You rock skorpi. Since you have much more skill and tools for dealing with your qualifier (and just more overall serenity) these types of challenges dont turn into major breakdowns. At least that's what I see in you. Good work!



-- Edited by pinkchip on Saturday 5th of September 2015 02:43:10 PM

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Thanks everyone!

One minor setback: the 2002 ford, which I have not yet been able to sell and so was going to drive while the car is being repaired, has a wiring harness that has been chewed through in places. I blame our resident groundhogs (Donna, Melvin, and Joey) but it is actually probably the fault of mice. So, although the car starts, something in the cooling system is not working. Splicing the wires looks like it should be fairly easy. How wonderful it is that I have a long weekend this week and have a bit more time to try to figure the wiring issue out!

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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu



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(((Skorpi)) Love how courageously you are facing this new set back as well as how much love you have for all HP's creatures.

The goundhogs:" Donna. Melvin and Joey" are certainly fortunate to be in your back yard!!!!. Good Luck on this new project.

Keep us updated.

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Skorpi i just want to give you a hug.

(((((( skorpi))))))

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Well, I thought I was done with this thread, but I have an update, lol!

So, my dad came down with his car hauler to pick up the Kia. But, when he looked at it while I was on my way home from work, he found that the gasket hadn't blown, the spark plug had merely shot out of its assigned working space with such force, it also bent the spark plug wire. Easy fix. So, we planned to load the truck on the car hauler and ride back together. (The truck, we thought, needed a new front axle. Actually, it needed new upper and lower ball joints and inner and outer tie rod ends on both sides. And a wheel alignment.) My dad also bought a new-to-us piece of engine harness to splice in the ford where the old one was chewed through or smashed with a blunt object. One or the other. We were just pulling out of the driveway with the ford to go on a test drive, when the spring gave way and popped the tire. Shredded the tire is more like it. Sigh. At least people could get by the car on the other side of the road while we changed the tire. So, we loaded the ford on the car hauler, and I drove north in the truck. The truck repair went well, 14 hours and we were done. We only had to return all parts to the store once, because they gave us the wrong ones, and go out to expand my dad's tool collection twice with "the tool that is made to do this, since what I have here isn't working." Alignment the next day. I started home nice and early this morning, which would (I hoped) give me plenty of time to settle the boys in their crates at home and pick up Chloe. 80 miles down the road, I noticed a check gauges light in the truck, so I did, and noticed the oil gauge was not looking good. Pulled off the road and noticed oil EVERYWHERE. Well, everywhere but in the engine. Added about a pint and saw that it would not stay in the engine where it belongs.

I called my dad, he unloaded the ford from the car hauler and came to collect me. He had a pet safe topper on his truck, so the boys got to ride in style and comfort in the back of his truck. And, were we ever lucky! It wasn't a seal or a gasket on the engine that gave way, but a hose that circulates the engine oil through a coolant core in the radiator to keep the engine oil cooler. And the part we needed for the 94 truck just happened to be at the auto store in town that hadn't sold us the wrong parts for it on Saturday. This all meant that we finished replacing the part tonight at 11 pm, and I am only missing one day of work.

I call redo, and will plan to leave nice and early tomorrow, hopefully in time to settle the boys in their crates and pick up Chloe before the pet lodge closes for the night.

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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu



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Wow Skorpi, everything went at one time!! Sounds like you and Dad handled all this mechanical
failure like professionals!! Glad it all worked out and you were there for each other. Also, happy
the boys were okay through all of the mechanical malfunctions.   smile



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Your mechanical abilities, kindness, and compassion are inspiring. Thanks for the update Skorpi.
Continued, prayers and positive thoughts on the way. Keep on keeping on.

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Skorpi - Wow......well above my skill set and it sounds like you dad is a wonderful guy!! How absolutely cool that he and you have these skills and were able to get through it!

(((Hugs))) for a safe ride home today....for you and the fur-babies!

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AAAAAAAAND, I made it a whole half mile toward home before my dad had to come collect me and the guys. At least this time, we were close enough to use a tow rope and didn't need to load the truck on the car hauler.

Anyway, THIS time it was a bad battery and a bad battery cable that were to blame. Both issues fixed by 4 pm, and the trusty truck got us all home by 11 pm.

AW called from jail (where she is presently as part of her sentencing for her OUI) and chewed me out for not answering the phone when she called on Sunday, as we had agreed upon a time for her to call. Guess I wasn't allowed to not get to the phone in time while dealing with the truck issue. Her PO also decided that she gets to spend every weekend at home with me for the next two years.

That send me into a tailspin. I guess HP wants me to move a bit faster toward some decision or decisions. So far, I can clearly hear HP saying "state van pool" for reliable transportation to and from work... I am also noticing that my emotions are out of control upset, angry, etc. whenever I "have to" speak with AW on the phone. Funny, isn't it? being stranded for a few hours on the side of the road is nothing compared to how hard it is for me to deal with speaking to my wife on the phone and the prospect of her spending weekends with me. Very telling.



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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu



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Skorpi -

Trust your gut and talk with your sponsor. I can see where the 'change' in the plan would cause you anxiety - it would me too.

I might be inclined to do some writing about it (journaling), talking about it (sponsor) and then praying about it. I guess in my way of thinking - just because the PO says it's allowed doesn't mean YOU have to accept it. Stand in your truth!

So glad you all got home safe and sound!

(((Hugs)))

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(((Skorpis)) You are amazing "Van Pool for work sounds as if HP is whispering a solution to the car problem for now. I hope that you were gentle with yourself, called and did not react with your AW. HP will also whisper a workable solution here as well. Keep an open mind.

I know the anxiety and fear that I expereincd each time I had to interact with my son. You are not alone.

I found that prayers for : courage, serenity and wisdom never went unanswered.
Keep on keeping on.

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My mother-in-law emailed me at my work address today. It seems that she does not believe that I am dealing with my AW in an appropriate manner. Thankfully, I received the email when I was just back from a noon Alanon meeting, and I wrote a few Alanon friends about the issue, and did NOT react and justify myself to my mother-in-law. I apologized to her for speaking with her openly and out of turn on the day my wife was sentenced, because I believe that my doing so was inappropriate. I said that I didn't expect her to understand or agree with my actions, that I was glad she was there to support her daughter, and that I was not going to discuss the issue further with her.
Then, I cried and made a few phone calls.
Now, I am off to meet with dear friends from college who are in town to get married. I am not about to let AW or her mom ruin my plans for my day. And, I will not allow their (partially uninformed) opinions of me and my actions define me. I am acting in accordance with my beliefs and the right or wrong of it is between me and my HP.
Thanks to Alanon for all these important gifts.

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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu



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Have a great time Skorpi!!! Great way to handle this situation - I see program, program and oh yeah - more program!

Way to go - so sorry for your tears but very proud of you!!

(((Hugs)))

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You handled the situation perfectly, you should be proud and happy!! Wishing you
to have a fun time at the wedding Skorpi!

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((Skorpi)) Certainly sounds as if your placed principles above personalities, kept the focus on yourself, and truly decided to live one day at a time taking care of yourself . Good work!!!

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Thanks

It is a beautiful morning, perfect day for a trip to the farmers market and some outdoor yard work. I think I will take Alex (my Akita/shepherd mix) to the market with me in the truck. Since we moved off the farm and don't have to go to the county dump to get rid of our trash, he has been missing out on his weekly rides in the truck with me.

I am beyond thankful for Alanon and my serenity this morning, and looking forward to a peaceful and productive weekend.

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((Skorpi)) Enjoy this beautiful day as I am sure your playful dog will.

You are a great Miracle in Progressaww



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Sounds positively great Skorpi - your fur-baby will be so happy!!!

Keep taking care of you!!!

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