The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Even though I broke up with my ex 3 months ago - doesnt mean I am truly over him. I thought I was so much further along than I really am. I am so busy doing my three jobs and living my life that I thought he was a distant memory. But not so much. Seems that I put him on the backburner everyday while I work, swim, socialize, exist - but when I sleep it catches up with me.
Since early January - I have 1-2 recurring dreams about him 3-4 times a week. Each dream its the same - he lies to me, I catch him, I get upset; he pushes me away, doesnt want me around emotionally and I get upset; he admits his drug use and I cant do anything about it. Then I end up with this preying on my mind for the entire day and it emotionally brings me down.
Thankfully the guy I started dating is being really understanding about this - but it really is getting to me alot. I dont want to be brought down by this at all - and then I come here and I hear alot of the same sadness that this makes me feel and I realize it is about this disease not about the relationship between people.
