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"We have found a loving, personal God to whom we can turn."
Basic Text p. 27
Some of us come into recovery with the impression that life's hardships are a series of cosmic tests designed to teach us something. This belief is readily apparent when something traumatic happens and we wail, "My Higher Power is testing me!" We're convinced that it's a test of our recovery when someone offers us drugs, or a test of our character when faced with a situation where we could do something unprincipled without getting caught. We may even think it's a test of our faith when we're in great pain over a tragedy in our lives.
But a loving Higher Power doesn't test our recovery, our character, or our faith. Life just happens, and sometimes it hurts. Many of us have lost love through no fault of our own. Some of us have lost all of our material wealth. A few of us have even grieved the loss of our own children. Life can be terribly painful at times, but the pain is not inflicted on us by our Higher Power. Rather, that Power is constantly by our sides, ready to carry us if we can't walk by ourselves. There is no harm that life can do us that the God of our understanding can't heal.
Just for today: I will have faith that my Higher Power's will for me is good, and that I am loved. I will seek my Higher Power's help in times of need.
rosie___________AMEN AMEN AMEN....i dont' think our HP "visits" pain on us either---------it is just LIFE.......HP does NOT interfer in material/ natural law issues.....shit just happens.........HP does not "test" us......life happens......i totally agree with this-----
WHY would god/ source/ higher power/ christ/ creator/ ----what EVER we call him/her/it, potentially drive a wedge between it and us with PAIN??? i used to tell my hp back B4 recovery (when i didn't understand as i do now) that MORE "tests--trials" are NOT going to push me to you, but drive me AWAY---- too many trials/ pain/ "tests" will beat someone DOWN---away from their higher power---create mistrust/ antipathy for their higher power....so WHY would a loving/ caring God want to damage our relationship??? i mean would i want to stay with a partner who constantly "tested" my love for him/ my trust for him/ my patience with him by putting me "through" stuff that was painful????? NO, i would get fed up with it and leave him!!!!!
hp aka "the SOURCE" did not give me a child rapist father---- i used to blame my hp for that happening........i am sure there were legions of angels SCREAMING at him "do not write yourself out of the book of life---do not murder this child's mind/soul/emotions".......however i see now that my hp created help for me through this program and others who suffered like me, to help me....i don't think hp wanted me to suffer this horrible evil...... i am glad that there is finally a "daily" that supports the FACT----hp does NOT test me.....it does, however, help me get through life and the more i cooperate with / align myself with my hp, the better i will be..... the SOURCE is all powerfull, meaning that he/she/it CAN override all the evil that was done to me...........i think that we are here under choice and freewill and that "natural law" stuff, hp does not always interfer on--- like stuff is going to happen--- the sun shines on the just and UNjust---- blessings happen to the good and evil ---- kind of an "equal opportunity" higher power--- no prejudicial it looks like....i think he/she/it DOES interfer in matters of "spirit law"....i always kinda thought this.....so it was very self defeating AND uninformed of me to "blame" the HP for the incest--- what kind of god is going to do THAT to a child??? only the god of darkness!!! and ONLY the God of LIGHT is going to heal me-- i see this now, in recovery....i didn't see it B4----
yes, TODAY i ask my HP....." universal Creator, KEEP my mind on U and keep my mind on the fact that YOUR will for me is for good/abundence/love/joy/health.....and that i CAN trust U in times of need".......
rosie, your words are like music to my ears...thank you for the inspiration. I thought too why did God let this happen to us...but it's not a matter of letting it happen...it just did, and God does not want bad things to happen to us...He loves us more than that. And I'm thinking he has had tears for us too.
Now it's a matter of what we do with the experiences...the old saying, make yourself better, not bitter. I'm working on that one...bitterness is like a poison and it can hurt and even kill us. God wants better for us. Somewhere I found a strength to get through this, that I never knew I had. All I need now is some closure, and peace over the last yrs events. keep me in your prayers...need them now...thanks so much...love and hugs, kat
UGH, the irony of your post !!! 99 out of 100 days, I am so on, have my faith, rise to the challenges, yada yada yada.
Yesterday was Day 100 where I felt I was being tested to the max. The day started with a bang and continued to get get worse. At the end of the day, the final straw was my toilet kept running and I had to get out of bed three times to jiggle the handle to which I said "God, is this a test because if so, you are really pushing it."
OH BOY! Do you think maybe I should just have the dern landlord change the handle of the *&^%((ing toilet or what?
LOL, your timing of your post was perfect but I was so bone tired exhausted that I didn't check the boards. So not only does God not test us, he also has a wonderful sense of humor.
Thanks for posting,
Love Maria
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"the more i cooperate with / align myself with my hp, the better i will be..... the SOURCE is all powerfull, meaning that he/she/it CAN override all the evil that was done to me..........."
"the sun shines on the just and UNjust---- blessings happen to the good and evil ---- kind of an "equal opportunity" higher power--- no prejudicial it looks like...." - RSL
Wow, wow, what an incredible post, you brought tears to my eyes, you speak the truth. I feel very redundant in saying your posts help me tremendously, I relate to what you are saying about the HP of your understanding, it is dichotomous, complicated but I understand completely.
You are such a shining twinkling beacon light, radiating the truth of God, being used Angelically from what I can tell. Angels are messengers of God... you sure are transmitting it today.
It's a Blessing & an honor to see your growth in action. (((((((((hugs)))))))))))
-Kitty of Light
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(((rosie))) Thanks, that was an awesome post. I believe the same, life just happens. It is also why I never liked the saying (actually I despise it) "HP doesn't give us anymore then we can handle" Your post made me realize why I've never liked it. It's because HP didn't give it to us in the first place!! I resent the suggestion that my HP would ever do anything like that to me or to anyone else.
I have never thought nor could I ever think that HP took my 6 week old daughter for a test of my soul.. caused my mother's stroke at 54 yrs old only a month later etc etc How rediculous!
What kind of egotistical thing would that be to do? Let me take your child and destroy your mother's mind to see if you still love me and believe in me, and hey, while I'm at it, marry an alcoholic for extra misery.. I think not.
That is not who I know as HP. If it was, I'd have a real hard time with it.
Christy
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99 out of 100 days, I am so on, have my faith, rise to the challenges, yada yada yada.