Dear all, Thank you for being here. Until two months ago, I thought my life was in one of its most peaceful places. And it really was. In the past couple of months, though, lots of change has come into my life. My life has been riddled with alcoholic relationships, through the years. Thankfully, I am not living with active alcoholism. But as someone who has lived her whole life as a codependent, I have my way of coping with change.
I have not been sleeping well, which is scary to me, since I am prone to depression. And I am going through huge hormonal changes, for which I am seeing an acupuncturist, who is helping me a lot.
Today I did something good for myself. I took a walk. We are having a beautiful, sunny day here, after many winter storms. I walked in the cemetary near my house. The air was so beautiful. And walking among the graves, I realized that nothing happens until it is time for it to happen. I thought that was a message from my HP.
Later today, after I called my sponsor and made a time to meet with her next week, I was sitting by the open patio door in my kitchen. I realized that no matter how much I want to worry and obsess about all the change that is happening, I won't be able to change a thing by doing so! I don't feel entirely calm, but I am doing what I need to to take care of myself, and for that I am grateful. It's all I can do. I feel as if I am sorting through what needs to be said and done, even when I am not thinking about it.
Thanks all for listening. And thanks all for being here. Thanks, too, for how Alanon teaches us to take care of ourselves. I see that here over and over again.
Blessings,
mebjk