The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I spent a lot of time, composing my thoughts, finding my words, trying to be as coherent as possible while feeling that my sanity was hanging by a thread.
Satisfied with my efforts, I clicked the submit button -- but at the same moment, my internet service was interrupted. So it didn't post and my words were lost.
On the bright side, I do feel better, even if my initial post never made it to the board.
that has actually happened to me b4, too... but I figured out that I can minimize the window & sign back on line & it doesn't disappear.
Also, someone told me they write in some word processing, like hournal & then move the posts over, so they are keeping their own seperate journal. It sounded like a great idea but alas, I've not gotten around to doing it that way yet.
Hang in there, welcome to our Board.
Love, -Kitty of Light
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Hi Taryn looking forward to your post and hoping everything is okay in the meantime. Please let us know you 're okay. Lots of love and support from everyone here. Luv Leo x
Do try again. I have had that happen to me as well. It was really frustrating, but as you said "I do feel better -even if my initial post didn't make it to the board". I felt the same way.
The word processing idea is a good one. I have used it before. Right after I lost a long post.
So... last night, after an exhausting argument with my A (my Father), I realized that I really need some outside support. My first stop, was the website for Adult Children of Alcoholics, but their site was down. I chuckled, thinking, "I'm finally at the point where I am going to seek help and the page cannot be displayed!" No worries, though. I just had to put my Googling skills to work.
So I ended up here, did some reading, registered and finally posted. After losing that post (and again chuckling to myself), I did feel better, but I wanted to post something, just to ensure that I would return. Although writing that post was very cathartic, I knew that feeling would only be temporary.
So a little bit about my situation, my Mother was a private A. I never knew how severe the problem was until she died of cirrhosis of the liver 5 years ago.
Since that time, my Father's drinking has increased dramatically. Although he considers himself to be a functioning A, I think of him as anything but... this was the basis of our argument last night.
What I am dealing with right now is an overwhelming feeling of resentment. After watching this addiction kill my Mother, I resent the fact that my Father is giving me a front row seat to the revival of this drama.
I'm here because I need an environment where people actually understand what I am going through. I don't have that now... and seeking that kind of support from my friends and not receiving it only seems to be compounding my problem.
Thanks again for your responses so far -- I appreciate it!
Hi Taryn: This is certainly a phenomenal group. I have a lot of understanding around resentment and feelings of abandonment. I felt chronically abandoned by my family of origin.
You will definitely find people here who can understand where you are coming from. I am sorry to hear that you lost your mother. Grieving a mother who virtually killed herself must be very very difficult. My own mother died 3 years ago and I think that experience of her finally being gone is seminal for me. I am still grieving it.
I am glad that you are here and looking for resources for yourself. Resentment can be very toxic. This group will help you contain it.
