loved that.

thank you for your wise support. All i give is from hp. talks thru our hearts uno?

Well I tell ya it is what I WENT thru. Yep every day has been a bit better, pain is less in
every way. Got one of those memory foam neck pillows and finally slept. Kept
warm soggy things on my neck, no not animal, gel packs...Though last night I was
cuddling with Tavish my youngest Basset, and his long ears felt so warm I tucked one
under my neck!

My double recliner finally died. Could it be from pot bellied pigs climbing on it to sleep?
And holding at least four dogs and me at one time while we watched tv?

Or maybe it was when I allowed Estersue in, hey she was soooo dainty, and she
tried to climb onto the chair with me....crunch. sigh. She is staying at 1100-1200
pounds now. She is cleaner than the hairy dogs i tell ya. Just causes damage just
by barely bumping something...

Well I found a very nice comfy blue single recliner at Goodwill, then found
a neat pink one.So I push them close together so Tavish can hang over
and be close.

Eden is a stream bed right now. The streams coming down from the mountain are rushing and loud. They come to one pond in the pasture, a huge one, then to a pond outside my bedroom sliding door and deck then stream on to the big canal in front to the river.

I love the sound.Wish I had ducks but my animals tend to want to be close,
well along with the animal, comes the pooty, and I hate slippery decks....

(c: i always have to be so close to them that they want to be close to me.

I did some dog rescue. Decided after people saying they would meet me
to see them and not showing up, that I was done with that.

I have lost a few small animals, old age. Gotta get strong. I have very, very old piggies
My horse is 29. He is as bratty as ever about grabbing the feed sacks from me

I feed the wild birds. Its so neat to hear them out there. IF I don't go and get
the cat food I will be feeding them fresh birds.....well they will hunt them...oops

I sit here and can see my bare maple tree. there are a zillion birds in it, all kinds
there are birds on my porch too. The big ones yell at me to get their peanuts
out there.

Ya know I used to say if it were cancer making the A act so horrible I would
stick it out. Not anymore. I gotta make sure I am as healthy as possible
as I grow older. You younger ones, believe me when ya turn 50 things do
change. Ya hurt more, you are more easily injured.

I am blessed with looking younger than my years. Go carded for id to buy
dinner wine in my early fourties.I am not kidding when I say, my gma did
not look old until she turned 105. My aunt looks in her fifties and she is 80, my
mom died at 64 and looked in her late fourties.

not from makeup either, none of us wear it or wear much. Hardy
farm ladies I guess.

But inside tells another story for some of us. My bones are that of a 76 year old I guess.
So no way am I going to allow anyone to hurt me. I got lotsa
loving animals to take care of for at least fifteen years.

My gma asked me if he was gone again? Told her, she said are you alone now?

I said grama how can i be alone with nine dogs, twenty cats, twenty pot
bellied pigs, one farm pig, one horse, three llamas, two guinea pigs, two goats one guinea man, four roosters, one hen, one FeeFee turkey pet rats, pet hamster.....wild birds....

And you guys are right, for me, I am out of the A crap. But I still need the support
and still need to share and support. Alanon for me is a way of life.

Well I let all the dogs out. let them in, and may i say they have a frigging doggy door to a nice clean pine shavings area!! Do they go out there, nooooooo rrrr

then put two old bassets back up onto my bed, the rest are on blankets and chair
and couch. my little yorkie/papillion rusty, who growled at the a all the time, is on me as usual
he never leaves me, never.

I should slip away for a bit, what else, to go get feed and cat food.

(c: If you saw my house you would not know I have nine dogs. i mop at least once a day, and i wash walls and stuff too. I give them baths and groom them. I love it.

exciting life eh? The world is a tough place, be easy on yourselves please.
remember the disease in your loved ones is always striving to bring you down. It taks a lot of work to build yourself up all the time. But ya gotta do it.

Is it worth it? It is up to each of us individually. All i can say about my situation is
I am glad it is over.

much love to you all debilyn in oregon