The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
i had this VERY important lesson i would like to share.... i have a bad back..muscle spasms..turn the wrong way and i can feel it "tweak" and i am down for days....big knots, and pain its awful
well last night i "tweaked" my back AGAIN... in times before, i would curse my karma, curse the situation...fighting it/ resisting it, while i cursed it.....this time???? i ALLOWED it.....i gave my "consent" for it to be here...it was hard, giving my consent to this god awful pain, but i did.....i have a technique for rubbing out the knots, where i lie on a mesh bag of tennis balls and i lie on my back with them underneath the pain site and i "roll on it"....this time i got on my tennis ball "massager" and i ALLOWED the pain, i "went with it" breathed deeply as i rolled on the tennis balls, massaging and carressing the painful spot....and i just kept saying to myself, "its ok, its alright, i am allowing this to be here" and as i rolled on my tennis balls, i could FEEL every time the balls would roll over the spot....i allowed my self to "FEEL" it, to "ride with it", and the massaging began to actually feel good....
i did it for about 20min and i got up and i was actually weak, kind of....i did take 1/2 pain killer (which normally did not touch the pain) and i could feel its "buffering" the pain....i breathed deep and ALLOWED myself to feel the pain and i noticed that the lactic acid was spreading about from my "massage".... i drank a ton of water to flush out the lactic acid i had disbursed, and i actually slept quite well last night....
this am, it was icy on the roads so i didn't have to go into work, and i was not very painful at all, in fact i only needed a tylenol.....i rested/ "went with it" i did NOT resist it....i "went with the flow" and today i am not so painful, in fact i am MUCH better....good enough to do LIGHT excersising to strengthen it.....
this is a real milestone for me....to NOT fight and resist a negative condition, but to "roll with it" "accept it" "give consent to it" that does not mean i LIKE it, but i ALLOWED what must be......the end result??? less pain today and probably a faster recovery.....because i am NOT giving it any resistance.....i am "making friends with my situations"......i asked my higher self, if i must be poor and alone, to enable me to make "friend with it" to NOT resist it, but to consent to it...be WILLING to be poor/alone....and to enable ME to meet my needs........
by doing what i did, i did NOT feed the darkness any energy....i starved it!!! by "consenting" to something i didn't want, but was WILLING to feel the pain, it subsided considerably and i am better today.....it looks like this "episode" may heal faster than the previous ones.........
i just wanted to share this experience.....ALL my life i have fought my "bad hand" but no more....i ask my higher self to enable me to ACCEPT/ make friends with the karma i cannot change....to enable me to change the karma i can....and to know the diference.........thanks for listening
wow, what a neat idea, I have heard of using one ball, but a bag of them (?) geezz that might even work for me!
I suffer from constant chronic pain, I would be doing better if I were training again, which ironically got me into this condition in the first place, through 15 years of ballet & gymnastics training & my chiropractor (the one I have now, who is very good) but scolds me for stretching "too hard" -- when I even do it!
Problem is I am "already too stretched out" (the ligaments & tendons) so since nothing will make the condition go away, stretching & slowly strengthening my muscles again, is really all I can do
I certainly am no role model for anyone, I'm an RMT that doesn't get massages, can't even afford them. My situation is so bad, my therapist has urged me to go on disability.
But I like the idea, I think I will try it, thanks for sharing.
When I worked, I would do "deep muscle therapy" telling clients to take some naproxen before they came in, in deep massage, the more you can tolerate (pain) the better you feel afterwards.
I'm supposed to ice my back 3 times a day for 20 minutes, I am so bad, I don't do that either but when I do, it really does help. Maybe part of my talking about it, is a way for me to realize I need to take my extremely poor wounded & wrecked body's condition seriously.
My theapist says, "K, your body is screaming at you!" Yes, I think it is a refelction of what is going on spiritually. Yes, I believe it is a sign/signal.
Thanks for your post Rosie, I just love the blue! I am a self confessed, "color freak".
__________________
Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
I've thought of applying this principle and step to things, situations, people I can't control. I've never thought of applying it to senses, or emotions.
This makes sense to me though. Such a new perspective.
It kinda reminds me of being ready and willing to accept to love of your HP, to accept the love of others, to accept your love of yourself.
Thanks for a different twist and perspective Rose. Talk about shining light.
Bob
__________________
You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
RSL, I was thinking about this some, going wiht the pain... my mother used to tell me, like when I was 12, getting my first cramps or younger with headaches & her telling me to "think of something else" or to breathe & go with the pain.
My problem is I learned this all too well... living with pain much beyond any normal point or measure, so much so that I am debilitated... and I mean my wrists hurt every single day, some days I can't even flip open conditioner bottles, some days, can't turn door knobs or pick up a piece of paper.
People that have never had such nerve pain - just don't get it - think your ridiculous or faking, which makes it all the worse.
The pain is so agonizing at times, combined with deaily stressors, migraines, the emotional pain piled on top, some days are just too hard to take... I guess I don't blame myself for having my suicidal ideations... just wanting out of pain. I guess I need to forgive myself for this too, it would probably ease my pain! heh
love, -K
__________________
Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
KITTY>>>>>>>I guess I don't blame myself for having my suicidal ideations... just wanting out of pain. I guess I need to forgive myself for this too, it would probably ease my pain! heh
ROSIE>>>>>>>>>oh i know exactly what you mean......acceptance relaxes you and all that, but sometimes i feel like i just can't "do the pain thing" anymore...whether is my back OR my wounded heart......so i try to take care of me more.....and yes, i too forgive me for *wanting out*..........some one told me when she began to "shake hands with her painful circumstances" (i didnt' ask what her situations were) but she said when she began to "shake hands with it" the karma wasn't so bad......cuz there was NO resistance to it....the key to this is the NEED for *NON resistance*............love , r
Aron
