Hello everybody,

I am very happy to have received news from John inviting me to post again.  I have been a little busy lately, I have not posted in a very long time. 

I am feeling well these days, it is not so much that the people around me have changed.  I have learned to find peace of mind eventhough my family still have alcohol and drug problems.  I think it has to do with attitude!! it is about letting go, and doing the best that I can do to be happy.  "It begins by me first". I am still attending Alnon meetings, I sponsor three people, and that has helped me to evolve a lot.  I know that the suggestions that I may give to others is really the answers that I give to myself in similiar situations.

I am not saying that my life is perfect, because I still have a lot of character defects that I work on daily, yet I am better than I was in the past.  I will always need Alnon to keep me on track.

I was attending university, I dropped my course because I failed a 10 percent quizz.  I based all of my value on that tiny little quizz.  I did not take into account all the times that I have done well in the past.  I suffer from perfectionism, I was brought up that way, I am always struggling with that character defect!! I found out in therapy that I dropped the course because I was so afraid of failing, that I told myself lies.  I had so many reasons, such as I am in too much traffic, the hours are not good enough, it must be my health problems etc.  I am ready to go back to university to take a risk, because I am nearing the end, I need to go over the fear.  Each day I ask my Higher Power to help me to go over my panic, and fears.  I know that the HP works through the people and the experiences of my life.  I want to thank John for gettting in touch with me.  I appreciate this message board very much and the people who share their daily experiences.  Thank you for listening to me, and letting me say the real things.  Have a calm and peaceful day!!