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Hello all....i feel like i haven't been here or talked to my friends in recovery in months. As a matter of fact, when i enter the chat room now, i no longer recognize anyone and very few say hello. But i wanted to share the progress that i feel i have made.
I have moved up to a new position at work which is very overwhelming but also extremely rewarding. it is very hard for me because I've always been a people pleaser and I can not take it when I think someone may be angry with me or not like me for some reason. Because of this, I have always let people walk all over me. It is obvious at this new job and has been voiced that some of my new co-workers do not like me. Well, hell with them. I finally came to the conclusion that I am a good person. I did not deserve what my A did to me and my son and I do not have to apologize to people who do not like me. I am very talented and good at what I do. For so long, i have had the lowest self esteem and could not see any good in myself at all but now every morning i wake up, i look in the mirror and say something good about myself. It is beginning to work. I am happy even if some people aren't happy with me. I have been hurt, emotionally abused, abandoned, and just plain devestated and I SURVIVED!! I may cry and have bad days but i am here and advancing in my career and making major life changes for the best. I no longer feel broken like i have for the past 3 years. I AM A SURVIVOR and i vow from this day forward to hold my head high and no longer doubt myself. I am good enough and no longer feel the need to have to prove it!
Just very proud of this new way of thinking.....I no longer choose to be a victim. I hope to talk to you all soon.
Yeah!!!! It is wonderful when we reconginize all of our good qualities....it means that we are taking a full self inventory. You should be very proud of yourself.
I used that same mirror technique! And, yes, it worked for me too. Almost 5 years later, my son and I are doing better than great after the split up with my ex A (I had to leave because he crossed the boundary line with physical assault while I was pregnant). It sounds like you are doing great too! I even have enough,... dare I say it?, 'cuz I'm NOT a guy, okay, I will, balls to have my own business now and following my dreams artistically and creatively. Who woulda thunk it? lol Total leap of faith and trust in my HP, and finally believing enough in my own God-given talent. And, truthfully, that's what happens when we let go, let God, take care of ourselves...everything that this program is about. If we work it, it works, simple. I thank you for coming back to share the progress. It is inspiring!
