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Since separating from my AH of 29 years, over nine months ago, I have come to realize how I now live my life in the here and now. I went to a concert last night with some friends and I had forgotten now much I enjoy listening to live music. Instead of being preoccupied with thoughts about my AH and his issues, I was able to just get lost in the beauty of the music that was being performed. I was a bit overcome with emotions when it occurred to me how much my life has changed these past months.
I work at a large university and live in university housing very close to campus. Before moving away from my home, I had a one hour commute each way to and from work. Now I can either walk, take a campus shuttle or drive. I am really enjoying living in a college town and being in a community full of young, vibrant and interesting people. I can walk to the movie theater, the grocery store, the mall, and great restaurants. This is an opportunity I did not have nine months ago. Nine months ago, I was cosumed with worry, self-doubt, anger and obsessive behaviors. My AH's disease was on my mind 24/7.
I am so much more at peace now, and my life is much more simple now that it's just me in my one bedroom apartment. I still have lonely moments at times, but overall, I am living a life of serenity. I am able to communicate more fully with my HP and my daughters (who all live out on their own). I am a work in progress and still make sure that I attend my weekly home group meetings, but I am making progress each day. I don't know where my life is headed, but I will take what it is today for now. There is hope for today...
wonderful. love this post. I kind of feel I would like to be able to work in the small town I live in and walk to and from work and just be. I am sick of the commute to, in a way. I like the peace of the drive, the music, the time to pray but my job is very challenging and people gossip alot and sometimes it messes with my serenity. I may be happier if I could just live an easier life style but then I have to remember my health benefits and think that perhaps with more time in this program I will become less affected by other people. It has gotten better with my growth. Its so nice that you are content and happy, living in the moment. Your post describes a peaceful life. Happy for you and your progress.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
Love this post and couldn't agree more. Since living on my own with my kids, I have been freed up to live life and it feels great. I obsess so much less and feel so happy to not be consumed by such negative poison anymore. Keep up the great work!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Lovely share :) Here and now is the only way to be!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
