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I was starting a new job for a corporation. I was good at what I did for a living. The personnel manager and I were down to the details of employment, and he asked me how much money I believed I deserved. I thought about it and came up with a figure of $400 a month. This was back in the sixties. I didn't want to ask for too much, so I decided to ask for the smallest amount I could live with. He hired me and gave me what I asked for. Later on, when I left that job, the personnel manager told me he had been willing to pay me whatever I wanted. Had I asked for $600 or even $700 a month, which was a tremendous salary at that time, I would have gotten it. I had limited myself by what I believed I deserved. --Anonymous
What are our beliefs about money?Do we believe that money is evil and wrong? Money is neither. It is a commodity on earth, a necessity. It is what people need to purchase many of their basic needs, as well as luxuries and treats; it is one way they are rewarded for their work. Loving money, however, can be as self-defeating as loving any other commodity. We can become obsessed with money; we can use it as an escape from relationships and feelings; we can use it compulsively to gain a temporary sense of power. Money is simply money.Do we believe there's a scarcity of money? Many of grew up with deprived thinking concerning money: There's not enough. There will never be enough. If we get a little, we may guard it and hoard it because there's no more.
#####ROSIE....this is a very dificult share for me, bcuz it is a step 4 item i recently had to reconcile myself with, but i will share Bcuz perhaps another in my situation experience the same reason or similiar reason for the *why* they sabotage themselves financially............i believed in the past that money WAS evil and wrong.....my perp used to use me for his devient pleasure and give me $100 each time.....now thats a lot of $$ in the 1960's and so i had quite a bit.....but i didn't keep it....i spent it on my baby brothers who didn't have any decent clothes, baseball equip for little petey.....boating stuff for charles.....and clothes for ricky.....stuff for me too.........as i told you all in shares B4, he forced me to play customer and whore....of course i was the young whore, and whore's get paid!!!!! i think by giving me this $$$ it made him feel like "its ok...i am paying my child to 'get me off' so whats the big deal???"....and after a while, i began to EXPECT it......i made him buy me MORE stuff, even when it was not during our "game".....he did....i had some control over what was happening to me, by doing this....like i had a *say* in my degradation.....but the seeds were planted.....money represented his evil......so i would run away and stay at the homes of poor folks who loved me and gave me SOME sense of decency and i loved them.....i associated being poor with love....rich folks like the perp, were evil........and that stayed with me.......i now see money as ONLY freedom from lack and limitation.....it is necessary for good food/ roof over my head/ clothing....and yes, pleasure!!!!! i am DESERVING of it now.....taking his money was OK....little girls are SUPPOSED to get gifts from *daddy* withOUT having to satisfy his devient desires.....it was OK for me to get money from him!!!!!! i see this NOW, but didn't than.......THAN when i got away from him, and carried all my mentally and emotional disabilities with me, i found poverty......REAL poverty, Bcuz i had NO self worth.....NO self esteem......NO sense i deserved anything but the barest survival ....and i got bitter!!!! i felt life was cheating me AGAIN!!!!!!! i felt victimized AGAIN......my cousins and my siblings were doing so much better.....and why????? i was the genious!!!!!! but my sub-mind was sabotaging me financially as A---manefestations of my ZERO self worth/ self esteem and B----some sick notion that i had to *pay for my sin*........well now???? that crap is OVER with!!!! it was HIS sin.....HIS evil............i DESERVE all the money i need to live a good /healthy life.....i pray now to God for MY deserved abundence.....MY good.....MY turn......MY being able to retire some day......Bcuz I DESERVE IT!!!!!! i did NOTHING wrong with him!!!!!!!! i absorbed the shame he SHOULD have felt and did not....i felt it instead!!!! and it is NOT my shame.........now i pray to my God to give me the *wealth that is MINE by divine right*
Money is not in short supply. We do not have to waste our energy resenting those who have enough. There is plenty of money here on earth.How much do we believe we deserve? Many of us are limiting ourselves by what we believe we deserve.Money is not evil. There is no scarcity, except in our mind and attitudes. And what we believe we deserve will be about what we shall receive.We can change our beliefs through affirmations, by setting goals, by starting where we are, and working slowly forward to where we want to be...............Today, I will examine my beliefs about money. I will begin the process of letting go of any self-defeating beliefs that may be limiting or blocking the financial part of my life.
#######ROSIE....i believed in lack as well.....it was my *karma* to be poor.......thats is not true....if God can lavishly clothe the flowers and the vegatation he can lavish abundence on me.......i used to resent those who have more.......now????? i CLAIM mine!!!!! through my affirmations, i thank my HP for my prayers of abundence ALREADY answered......i tell my hp *it is MY turn now.....thank you for releasing to me all the abundence that is MINE by DIVINE right*.........i am changing this belif system of mine.....i DESERVE all the good that life can throw at me after all i went through and i did NOT turn evil over it.....i turned to God!!! and what is good !!! and what is healing!!!! and what is loving!!!! so i do NOT pay for his crime anymore....i only answer for me!!!! MY inventory!!!!!! TODAY, i thank my higher power whom i call God for releasing unto me ALL the wealth that is mine by divine right!!!!! i give thanks becuz it came onto me under grace and in perfect ways!!!!!!!!! thank you
