I am blessed with so many things and it is so wonderful when a person can feel and see these things. These things may not be easy now for me with my mom and dad's failing health but I see the blessings in it and am embracing them now. Alzheimer's is still an awful horrible disease and for me especially when it is my mom. I am blessed by being able to vent here without judgement from those that truly care or I think I would lose my mind or have some more heath concerns. I am blessed by the so many friends I have here who are genuinely my friends and stick by me in thick and thin,,,,,shortcomings and assets,,,,bad points and good points. I am blessed by the ability to make amends and do my steps every day and own up to my shortcomings to my HP/higher power and my self knowing that I am forgiven. I am blessed by being around people that allow me to apologize and make amends for my wrong doings. I am blessed by this kitten here who sits on my hands while I type purring with so much love in his heart LOL. If we look at our blessings everday we can connect with our higher power sooner and start a new day. What I am going through now with not only my daughter's alcoholism/drug addiction (she just quit another job etc.) and with my paernt's health seem so overwhelming at times and very hard, like my heart is breaking into a million pieces. And as you all know it doesn't help when I do not have the most supportive spouse but I am making it somehow, one day at a time or one hour or one minute or one breath at a time....even when I cannot breathe that one breath easily, I am blessed by the fact that I can indeed breathe without a breathing machine or have a breathing disease.

I have been trying to get in touch with kelley,bo,iabob so if anyone sees them and has my email please give that to them in private. I may be able to get the emails here on pm at message board or maybe on my email that doesn't want to work accurately and if I have time will check at a library where I may go to  when my computer is being fixed. But until then I am blessed that I still can be here with all of you and know that I am not alone :) (((((((((((roomies)))))))))) God Bless YOU in what ever your belief system or spirituality may be. For we all come here with hurt and pain which no one else can truly understand and for that to me is the biggest blessing I have right now. your friend in recovery,cdb :) xoxoxo