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i dont know what is getting in to me lately. i have let my a and his mother walk all over me and i am just mad at myself for this. i have stopped enabling my a and his mom along time ago. somehow i got tricked into this. first of all my mother in law doesnt work just stays home and lives off other people. a little over a week ago i leant her half a pack of smokes that i was supposed to get back the next day, but of course, she never got her money. suddenly now she owes me money for a pack and a half of cigarettes. i know it doesnt seem like much, but its the fact that i gave her what litttle i had left and never stood my ground and just said no. today, my a and her went out for a free lunch through his sister who got a new job at a restarant opening, my a asked if he could borrow twenty dollars from me just in case the meal turned out not to be free. he promised that would be the only way he would touch the money. anyways after work he picked me up and i asked for my money back. he only had five left. not only did he buy his mother a drink but bought one for himself as well. how could i be so stupid and believe he wouldnt do that. it was not his money to spend but i risked that so it is my fault. i gave him the money and trusted him. but once again i always knew alcoholics lie. one good thing through this, he only had one, which in the past has never happened. and two at first i screamed and said im not supporting their habits but then we got home and i just let it go. it happened, he's home and not drunk, its in the past. i will have to just say no for now on. i made it clear, no more cigarretes for his mom, its not my problem, i still havent received my money back. and two he can never touch my money again.....for anything. thanks for letting me vent
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stay in the now...dont look forward, dont look back....your life is what you make of it
It's okay we all make mistakes. You learned from it right? On the upside, he didn't come home drunk, and that's something to be thankful for. You're doing just fine. Cut yourself some slack.
Live strong, Karilynn
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Great job! I love whut /\/\s /\/\egan says: this is a learning experience we wander through - we learn. I wandered into this room after my ex ( and my family ) try to put me into their mind tricks - I'm like "no - this is not real or right." To recover is an option everyone can get if to recover remains a focus for the individual. Hang on - we got your back - u will do it! \/\/ille
The good thing out of all this is that you caught it. I know I am getting healthy when I see that I have let people cross boundaries. The awareness for me is a step in the right direction. Soon I will be able to spot this before they cross the boundaries. But remember progress, not perfection.
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
