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IT TOOK ME 27 YEARS. I WAS RAISED CATHOLIC AND HAVE ALWAYS WORRIED AND FELT BAD ABOUT NOT FEELING IT.. NOT FEELING RELIGION IN GENERAL. I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN GOD I JUST NEVER FELT A TRUE CONNECTION TO IT.. UNTIL NOW. I HAVE REALLY LET GO.. AND AM LETTING GO MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY, LITERALY SAYING OUT LOUD THAT I AM LETTING GO AND VISUALIZING THE THINGS FALLING FROM MY HANDS AND TO THE GROUND. ITS IN GOD'S HANDS NOW. I PRAY FOR HIS WILL AND I AM DONE CONTROLLING THINGS I CANNOT, I AM DONE WORRYING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES' PROBLEMS AND I AM DEFINITELY DONE PRETENDING THAT I AM GOD (DIDN'T KNOW IT THEN BUT I THOUGHT I KNEW EVERYTHING, I WAS SO SELF RIGHTEOUS AND ACTED AS IF I WAS GOD!!!) I AM SO GLAD I AM FINDING MY HIGHER POWER AND IT IS HOW I SEE HIM AND THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF IT ALL.. IT'S NOT MY MOM'S OR MY HUSBAND'S OR MY BORN AGAIN FRIEND'S WHO TOLD ME I NEEDED TO BECOME SAVED.. IT'S MY HIGHER POWER AND I AM CERTAIN GOD LOVES ME AND THAT LETS ME LET GO AND LOVE MYSELF, FLAWS AND ALL... FOR I AM FINALLY WORKING ON THEM!
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
yay Michelle. there aint no need for them there caps now....lol. I HEAR YA! lol. the thing with faith- it gets stronger the more yu believe in it. strange things happen to me- just when i think i am in trouble real bad with bills- there always seems some way out of it- we arent on our own i feel- there is someone listening and trying to help us. we just have to be aware of it.
Aloha Michelle...you are so inside of HP's front door right now. Stay there. You said it like it happened to me and coming from the same religious experiences as you I understand more. Now instead of just knowing...we're learning how the doing works.
"...Abandon yourself to God as you understand God." So glad you finally caved in and gave up your throne. More miracles are coming. YAY!! ((((hugs))))
LOL my born again friends use to shout "Oh you got saved!! What church do you belong to?" and when I answered "I'm still Catholic" they murmurred "Oh" and then shuffled away. Kept my wife's anonymity and didn't mention alcoholic/addict.
Great share. It took me a long time to stop playing God, but when I realized it was making me feel crazy because the job was just too big to handle, it made it easier. Now my favorite thing to do when I feel my mind spiralling, I picture God's huge hands coming down and I hand him each and every worry and I name them and tell him I can't control or fix or save these things, then I crawl in and ask him to guide me. It had been so great to find serenity instead of the insanity that was my life. Keep up the great work! Sending you love and support!
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God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.
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Welcome to MIP. I see that you are new. I am glad you have found a forum of like minded people to share what you have found. It sounds like you are on a spiritual journey. It is one heck of a ride when a HP is on board.
Thank you so so much for responding! Today has been a very challenging day for me because my job is so demanding in so many ways... so many things are out of my control at work that just frustrate me and as I grow in Al-anon I am learning more and more that I need to decide what is out of my control and let it go and what is in my control to change about myself. (i.e. gossiping about the issues/people that bother me, attempting to have control where i do not have control, and butting my nose into business that is not mine. flopadopilus, how you stated that image of the hand is amazing to me.. i have been picturing my worries falling from me and smashing on the ground. Worry and fear is absolutely pointless at this time and I know it. For the first time in my life I am also not so much afraid of death because I am convinced there is a God and that I am loved and will feel the ultimate peace and serenity when my time comes. sorry to get morbid but I was always so worried about what if.. and if i wasnt sure this.. would i go to hell or what not and now I realize that i have no control over how i feel on those issues and I have accepted my lack of faith and am now just asking God to guide me and give me faith as I see it. So happy I found Al-anon and feel so blessed to have found it now and not in twenty years. I am working hard at letting go of the past between my husband and I.. not worrying or fearing our future and just enjoying this day we have together. This is hard when you plan and want to have a family but perhaps when I can master this I will be a better mother, less nagging and more smiling.. less controlling and more going with the flow. Thanks all for responding but mainly thanks HP for putting you all hear to read my post to help me take in some wisdom, I am all ears and very open to all al-anon has to offer me.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
