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I have read some posts but am still behind, the ones I have read seems everyone is working hard at taking care of themselves!!!!
This last week has been interesting. My A came home on the 16th with certain conditions. I feel comfortable with the decision I made. I do so love him. He has talked more to me in the last week then he has in 8 years. About his son that passed away last year, that he feels that when he was a baby, 12 wks preemie. When he was released from the hospital at 10 months old my A insisted that his wife, baby, and he go to Oregon to visit my A's grandfather. While they were down there his son got RSV, he died on the way to the hospital and he and his wife decided to have him revived. Of course his son's brain had went a long time without oxygen and he now blames himself for insisting on the trip. He thinks that if he hadn't went to Oregon that his son would be alive. That he wouldn't have spent nearly 15 years with learning, speech, and other disabilities. He also talked to me about us, our marriage, and the passion that we have for each other. That he really is working on being a man of his word. Which he has been for the last 10 days. He is still drinking, Fridays with his friends, but he says there is no reason for him to be at the bar past 8pm, as he is not single. He knows NO COCAINE will be tolerated. He has started doing stuff around the house, has been more affectionate then he has been in the last 4 years, falling asleep at night holding my hand or touching my shoulder. I don't know if it will last, but I am living it one day at a time one small miracle at a time. I have been good about my daily readings and doing stuff for me. Still working as hard as I can for myself.
Hi thank you for your share. It is hard to share at times. It is like you are giving something of your sole. It is true one thing at a time. It is hard to do everything at one time. I have a husband that is supposed to bre recoverying from using drugs. However he is still drinking. For me though I can't accept him drinking because he is a nasty drunk. Take one day at a time and life will work better.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
Glad to hear things are going so well. Even more glad to hear that you are continuing to work on you. I've made that mistake before. When my A would do well, I'd slack off on my recovery...feeling as if I didn't need it as much. Then when he would mess up I'd be the same devastated wreck I was when I first came to the program. After a few times of doing this to myself, I committed that regardless of how HE was doing I would remain loyal to my recovery and not slack off on it.
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Kathy S --
~*I trust my Higher Power that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in my life today.*~
I'm behind on my posts too. Glad to see things are going in the right direction for you. You sound better. Sometimes it's the littlest things that mean the most. I try really hard not to look too far into the future, and take each day as they come. That way if something happens, my hopes won't be dashed. Call it self-preservation. But so far so good.
Hugs to you and the family.
Live strong, Karilynn
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