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I think I've been losing ground lately in the sense that I am not having patience with myself or my A. I feel that an online sponsor would be helpful. I have been seeing a lot of my A lately, and I don't know where the relationship is going. We still do not have any physical realtionship outside of cuddling on the couch etc...We've been out a few times to dinner and a movie, have had a nice time. I've been feeling like things aren't getting "fixed" soon enough and I know that I am losing my way when I feel this way. I just want everything to go back meaning my family, however, I am also not willing to go back to the way things were..the funny thing is and what I am reacting to is the fact that he DOESN'T. He's not weasling his way back in, he clearly does not want to and that is just something I am not used to. I recognize it withing myself and I have reacted to it slightly and at least i have been able to be honest about my feelings with him. I have been up and down with taking care of myself as well. Started an excel class, having friends over on Friday for a Halloween psychic night, cleaned out my basement, those are the good things. I'm still struggling though....making good decisions is a struggle, having patience...I thinkI need some help.
I was a little perturbed because I posted earlier and then what I put didnt get put here. So here goes again :) I find that getting a sponsor from a face to face meeting is much better since you can have one on one contact with them so easily. But if you can't, then what I did was find someone that I admired and who we had common thinking and interests in. It took me about a year though. I started my step work myself by using the alanon Paths to Recovery Book where there are questions at the end of the chapters to answer. You could even post them on the step board here at this site for feedback. There is no need to wait for a sponsor to start your steps/journey. I also used the people in the room as my sponsors while working through different issues of my own. Whatever works for you right now. I konw someone who called the main alanon office and got a sponsor that way too :) So, you have many options here.Just don't give up :) It works if we work it :) good luck, cdb :)
