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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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Many people have PM'd me to tell me how serene I sound. Well, I just want you to know that I have my moments too.
Today I called in sick to work. For no reason, just because I didn't want to go to work.
10 minutes after I phoned in, I got a call from the lady that is renting my old property. The big kitchen window was blown in through the night, the shingles were ripped off the porch, most of the siding on the east side lifted, and the fence we had to put up after a wall blew down in a previous wind storm blew over.
I slept most of the day to avoid the situation. I did call the insurance, but they told me that because it is a trailer, chances are, only the window will be covered, and i will have to pay $500 deductible.
I still want to sleep. I want it to fix itself. I can't afford to fix it... I feel like shit.
So there you go, the program is great, when you work it. I am choosing to feel sorry for myself. I am not working my program, I am avoiding the situation...
Personally, I think i suck...
HOWEVER, I chose to post this because I intend to get my arse off my pity pot, and gather some strength.
You do sound serene. But even serene sounding people have their moments. I'm with you about crawling back under the covers. Some days, you just have to do it.
Live strong, Karilynn
P.S. Remember if that stuff happened yesterday or Saturday it was my fault!
P.S.S. I don't think you suck. I think you had a bad day.
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Feelings aren't facts. I don't think you suck. I think you feel like you suck. And, feelings pass....
The three A's: Awareness, Acceptance, Action. You know what's going on. You're accepting it. And when you're ready you'll do something about it :) Just work it.
Actually last week one of the readings in my "Learning to Let Go" talked about being gentle with yourself. That sometimes you "need" to cocoon and that's okay....Hang in there.
You're not alone on that pity pot. we all spend time there, it's normal. Isn't there a slogan "Progress not Perfection"? I'm sure if you look back you'll see the progress. So, Easy Does It!
Every body is entilted to have a bad day. It happens. You just have to get yourself up, brush your self off and continue to have a better day. It is ok you are human. Humans make mistakes.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
We all have our moments, and I can relate to your not wanting to deal with unpleasantness "right now". I consider myself as strong as they come...not tough, but strong; there is a difference...and that difference is the key. Even the strongest of us fall once in a while, and I think that's a good thing. We get a chance to be pitiful for a while, then we pick ourselves up and bravely go on. I send you my very best wishes, Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
