Hello Roomies:

Last night my A took me out for dinner and a movie. The movie we chose was "Two for the Money" with Al Pacino, Rene Russo and Matthew McCoughney.  It was a movie about Sports betting (my A's gambling addiction) and Al Pacino and Rene Russo play a married couple in recovery. Without giving away too much of the plot, I will say that although not a spectacular film, it hit very close to home. To me, I felt alot of the same feelings I have had and was upset by the fact that my A did not like the film and found it "unrealistic" I started to get upset. His lack of insight  bothering me. But then I took a step back. Maybe he does not have enough insight yet, maybe he never will. Not my problem.  We had a brief discussion about it. It wasn't heated or angry and AGAIN I was able to keep calm, not impart my own judgments on him and keep my side of the street clean. We are slowly working on intimacy and I was very proud that I was able to say that I think we need to work on our relationship before we attempt to have any kind of physical relationship. Today is Sunday, usually my worst day of  the week...I got up late (I had gotten home late) and did some Halloween shopping ( I am having a psychic night here for Halloween) and am making a big dinner for friends. My A had asked if he could come by tonight after football and I told him to call and I would see.  I have to say...I really feel good lately. Thank you all for all of your support....it keeps me moving in the right direction.