The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Beth and I have decided to share our story. I will post my half and Beth will do her part in separate post. Here goes a remarkable story:
I happened to be in chatroom when Beth shared about worrying she might become estranged from her grandkids. This was at about 17:00 or 5:00 pm German time. That night, 6000 away, Toto wanted to sleep, but something told her to get up and go to chatroom and talk to Beth whom she would find in the room just at that time 5 or 6 hrs. later. Now i rarely run into Beth and besides Toto wanted to sleep. I felt foolish but decided to follow intuition: "Get up!" I did and, lo, she was there, really. The inner voice told me to tell her what I had learned from my sister. I had had the same worry the day before and had learned to wait before reacting and sure enough my sister sent me a lovely mail the next day, making up for my worries, so I told Beth to wait, that I thought HP was telling her to be patient. Now the rest of the story belongs to Beth.
In closing, I want to say that I have a real problem with trust in HP, and giving up control. This was a lesson I don't want to forget: to be patient, wait for HP.
Also learned that Hp will use anyone. I believe I listened to an inner voice that everyone has.
my half....that was all....the real step 3 success belongs to Beth
"...I want to say that I have a real problem with trust in HP, and giving up control. This was a lesson I don't want to forget: to be patient, wait for HP"
I am self destructive, have gotten angry & gone off on my own without much success. I have always had a spiritual experience with HP (I prefer to call the universe-force of life & all-god) always... at least I have always known god was there, telling me things through intution... but with my stubborness & rebelliousness I spent many years, disregarding what god was saying & ignoring it.
When I would follow that inner intuition... low & behold! things would work out positively, less painfully, more smoothly.
I know the only thing I can control is myself, my own reactions or actions, my own thoughts. Not the weather, not the news, not anything! All each one of us have is ourselves. John Bradshaw sd, "(ultimately) we are born alone & we die alone" no one can know what it is like for us, as we can truly not know what it is like for anyone else.
Surrendering to HP is such a relief, it frees us up from so much burden & needless worry.
Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, there is great love here.
-k
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
About 6 weeks ago my daughter in law left my youngest son and took the my 2 youngest grandchildren with her. My youngest son is 1 of the A's in my life. Even though I was proud of her for doing this it still hurt very much not to be able to see grandbabies as much as I was use too
I finally heard from her in 2 weeks and she told me that I would be able to see them in a few days. A week went by and I still hadn't heard from her. I was starting to think that future with grankids wasn't looking very good and that is when toto stopped in and told me what her HP told her to tell me
I remember being so happy and knew that I just needed to be patiant. Well 3 more weeks went by and I still hadn't heard from daughter in law and I became depressed about it again
Than toto stopped in the chatroom again and reminded me of what her HP told her and before she left I felt so much better. I just needed to be patient
That night I wrote in my journal. OK God Im finally turning this over to you. and I felt that I did just that
Well this is the cool part. Twenty minutes later Daughter in law called and we set up a time for me to see grand babies. :) I couldn't believe it. When I finally gave it to HP it didn't take him very long to get things going .
Yesterday I saw my grand children for te first time in 6 weeks. What a wonderful time we had.
i had to keep telling God that i was WILLING to trust/ turn over......i had No trust NO faith, no ANYthing as far as God was concerned!!!!! but i wanted to!!! so i kept saying * i am WILLING* over and over and with just that---- the universal creator had something to *work on*...like giving HP *license* to come in and heal my heart------ nice share, and i can so relate / rosie
" had to keep telling God that i was WILLING to trust/ turn over......i had No trust NO faith, no ANYthing as far as God was concerned!!!!! but i wanted to!!!"
This is exactly how I feel... now I know whatI have to say.
