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As we work the program, we find that we cannot be rigorously honest about what we are adicted to unless we are rigorously honest about our other actions as well. Once our Higher Power takes charge of our lives, a general housecleaning occurs. Gradually, we see that the attitudes and activities, which undermine our integrity, have to go.The housecleaning process can be painful. It involves facing aspects of ourselves, which we would prefer to remain hidden - our dependency, pride, selfishness, avarice. Sex and money are often areas where our attitudes and practices need revision. What we are doing is shifting from an ego-centered to a God-centered orientation, and the shift is not always smooth.
######ROSIE.....you know, when i did step 4, i felt like a halloween pumpkin where someone took a big trowel and gutted me!!!! like all my *inners* where there out in the open, and i thought "damned!! i am just TOO messed up to fix".....but i kept going...i knew that if i did the inventory, one thing at a time....ONE injury at a time....and thank heavens i was *shaking hands with* the HP of my understanding, because i was able to do it *one hurt at a time* give it UP to the universe/ release me from this karma that i made as a result of my injuries.....i mean i faced me so bad, i almost thought that *i am too sick for anything to help me*......i found all kinds of crap....my over spending, going out and buying crap, was to fill the *grand canyon* sized hole in my heart!!!! the emptyness was abysimal!!!!! i was only too happy to give up my ego me, my will, my *white knuckle* approach to life to a gentle spiritual way....to my HP within!!!!!!!! and my shift was about as smooth as riding a bicycle down the center of miles of railroad tracks......gawd!! it was awful!!!! but like getting a tooth pulled, i knew it was productive pain!!!!!
Rigorous honesty shows up harmful relationships for what they are. It illumines our motives, which are not always the best. The love and care of our Higher Power support us as our weaknesses are exposed. Through His healing power, we are strengthened and made whole.
grant me the ability to practice rigorous honesty in all areas of my life.
######ROSIE....one thing i had going in my favor of *makin it* here in this program.....my *cut to the chase* honesty....its just in me to be *up front--no BS behind it--cut to the chase*....i would make a great submarine commander!!!! neither of us has time for bulls**t!!!!! total and open honesty is what is needed to recover from ANY mental / emotional illness, i do believe......being totally honest left me open for new perceptives, OH and add to the honesty..being willing and open....thats all i needed to recover...i thought i was a hopless case when i first got here....but now????? NO!!!!! total honesty/ willingness/ openess to new persepctives has been the engine that has pulled my train........i ask my self EACH day for a report card!!!!!......positive and negative....i want it all!!!!! i want to get well!!! i will pay ANY price to achieve a happy/ healthy/ abundent/ whole/ meaningful life!!!! thank you DONE!!!!!
