Hi all.  I have been reading a  lot of the posts here on this site.  I feel much better now, and also am more confident that I am doing the right thing for myself.  I have  just recycled my former marriage with my A, and we are now separated 'again'.

Seems like we were always 'separated' now that I look back over my years with him.  Although I must say that we were together in "our" sickness when I was not in alanon; however, now that I have done so much work on myself, we are "no longer" together in healthy living.

As many of the posts that I have been reading said much of what I am going through, I don't feel so alone in my quest for peace and hope for myself and my A.  He has  many good qualities as most A's and Alanon's do; however, I am unwilling to continue living with untreated alcoholism.  Although my A does not actively drink (been dry for 24 years), he needs to work his program seriously because the behaviors are still 'dry', and I am feeling trapped and depressed when I am with him physically.

Anyhow, I love this place and have been reminded of the love and acceptance that is in this program.  I pray for all of us that we will continue to move forward with our HP as our guide on side side and the Program on the other.

XOXO,  Scamper