The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I came to the board last night after a week of not feeling well, dragging myself to work and waiting for the next shoe to drop with my A. It was then that I realized just how dumb I was all week. Each night I came home, dinner was ready. Yeah, this is something that I have done for years and years with very few thank yous. But does that make it ok for me not to be thankful? NO. My nine year old commented on having had meals together this week. I said, "We used to always have them. but no one seemed to care (no one meaning my A), so Mommy stopped caring too" I realize now, that I truly did care, and obviously so did everyone else, including my husband. Today I can be grateful for what he did today to make ammends for his part in the past and to take responsiblity for his role in our family.
Maybe he will drink today, maybe he will get high. I don't know. But through alanon I am beginning to learn to be grateful for what my HP has given me today and to expect nothing more than that.
Thank you all for you wisdom. I am truly grateful today.
Thank you for the reminders confused. I try to practice gratitude everyday, but sometimes I forget and get into my "stinking thinking". Glad you are here with us, SenoraBob
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Higher Power doesn't always wrap presents in pretty paper.
Thanks for the reminder confused On taking things one day at a time!!!
I have been working on Just for today I will....... and what ever i think I need to focus on just for today!!
I too am very grateful for Al-anon and this online group and the wisdom that has been shared with me i have had thoses days of not being thankful and living as a victim but I am learning that if i can just think about just for today I can better learn the lesson for that day and see what my hp has done for me and it makes me very grateful and keeps me out of being a victim!! Thanks so much confused for your wisdom and your strenght in my recovery!!!
