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Newbie here, been an alonon member for just a little over a year now. We have a small struggling group, as we are in a remote community in northern Canada. My husband is the active drinker in my life. I was born and raised in the chaos and with the effects of alcohol. Today, I am tired. Its so hard and lonely always trying to make the right choices. My young children motive me to keep going - like I said , I am just tired.
Raising two small kids is tiring on its own without the added responsibility of your husband. I live in a remote community as well and that in itself makes you isolate yourself from others because of the "Bush telegraph" as we call it which is the gossip. It is so hard having to be the responsible one all the time because your partner is not capable of fulfilling their side of the bargain. It is great that you are in Al-anon and have a support network around you. I don't know what you are like but I always have to do the right thing, keep in control and feel like the glue that keeps the family together. I need the control because I feel the only one I can rely on is me. I am learning through this forum and the advice of others to slowly let go a little at a time. Take time out for you and remember the 3 C's.
Welcome to the board. I live in a rural area and drive 30 miles to a small group. Our group has come a long way in recovery. We are able to help each other through the crisises that come up. I find that the literature keeps me going and the speaker tapes. Take care of yourself. Honor your feelings. Someday you will be tired and some day you will be ready to go!
Wow! You guys are awesome! I went to bed last night feeling wearing - not sleepy. What a wonderful way to start the day. Thank you so much for the encouragement, I will keep coming back . I do attend meetings (35km away) , the fact that I am not alone helps so much - but the meetings themselves are lacking. (long story) I do read the literature reliously - but its nice to bounce things off of 'real' ppl. I am so excited to have found this message board - and truly look forward in sharing / caring with all of you. Angie
You have come to the right place. I have been posting since July and look forward to connecting with my friends on the board. It is nice to know that we are not alone . To share without anyone judging us is so important.
Know that while you sometimes feel alone we are all only an email away..
I understand the feeling of being tired.....for me the daily dealing, uncertainty, can leave me just staring at the walls at night. I wait for that dreaded phone call from my mom telling me my dad's (who is my A) is gone. I just wish we could repair our relationship but don't even know where to start. I feel your pain. Keep strong.
