Hi all,

I posted perviously that my "A" had a posibility of going to Alaska and was just waiting on a phone call on Tuesday.

Well, I don't have to wait until Tuesday. My "A" had decided not to go! He stopped by my work and said that he was unable to find a reason to go besides the money, and that wasn't good enough. He wants to stay home.

I am shocked! This wouldn't be so shocking if my "A" was sober/clean right now. My "A" is in active addiciton and said this. I am floored by this moment of clarity he is having.

I was promised a bew car if he went, but I told him that if he doesn't go, then we will have to really work hard to be able to afford one, and then I think we would appreciate it more. I want him home, crabbing is a dangerous job, and no ammount of money is worth his life.

I didn't want him to go, but never once had to vocie that. He knew I didn't want him to go, and that I would not hold him back either. But somehow on his own he finally saw the time missed with the kids, and the value in that.

To the very very end these "A"s of ours are truly unpredictable. Lol, I don't get it, and I am not going to figure it out so I am not going to try to.

The one and only thing is, a tiny part of me wanted him to go because of the peace that would bring to my home. I hate to admit it, but it is true. I know HP is in control on that one.

Thanks for listening all,

Much Love,