The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Thank you so much for all the support and prayers. I just now read your replies from my other post. Just when you think things couldn't get worse they do. My mom and I came down with the flu and ended up in ER Friday. I could not communicate much with her all night and then in the morning my flu sypmtoms emerged with full force. Poor mom felt so helpless with her alzheimers which makes me disconnected thinking. I had the cordless phone as I laid on the bathroom floor and the phone wouldn't dial out. I called the operator and she had to connect me to the correct phone company which never answered. My mom and I do laugh at this stuff now. LOL I finally went to the other corded phone and called my dad in the hospital to say,do not come home to get this flu! He called a friend to come and drive us to the clinic. ON the way mom started to pass out so we went to ER. They tested us for food poisoning and mom for e-coli which dad had. We ended up having the flu and at least got filled with bags of IV fluids and medication to stop our other violent symptoms. This was the first time I had seen my mom go through alzheimer hallucinations thinking dad was in the room we shared but I stayed strong. My husband I always complain about had called earlier in the morning and my mom said I was sick and couldn't talk. He called at noon and when no one answered he drove to find us in the city 2 hours north of where we are. I guess he does have a heart and loves me and us afterall.
Dad got out of the hospital and I thank HP/God for giving me the power to clean up all the mess and steralize the bathrooms before he showed up with the flu and a fever. He and your prayers were with me. We were doing okay when today my husband called and found out our daughter with alcoholism wanted to kill herself friday but did sign herself into the psych ward with an AA members encouragment. (((((((((((daughter)))))))))) I feel so helpless not going home but I need to be here and my husband can be with her. I asked my husband to have her call me but if she doesn't it is her choice. I can leave and go be with here if needed. I feel so torn so please please say prayers for my daughter now! We are cutting off monitory help from her and that has stressed as. But it is the right thing to do. She heard a friend of hers talking about her where she works and was upset and did talk to her dad, my husband. They talked about how the things she had done do cause gossip and people to talk but my husband feels she had a hard time dealing with this. I can't think about her stuff now. She has her aa friends and I have my alanon friends. I believe in prayers. The night I was so sick with nausea I thought of all of your prayers and that got me through the night. I pray for all of you too!
I am at the local library now and just typing this is helping my anxiety. I am not sure when I will be at the library again. My dad has surgery to correct the catheter mistake that broke a blood vessel in his prostate on the 20th. I am not sure if I will try to go home in between or not. I sue will if my daughter asks! I just found out about her being in the psych ward and she was suppose to get out today and see her psychiatrist. I am waiting for her to call or my husband for an update. I sure need prayers now. your friend in recovery,cdb ((((((alanon friends)))))
PS........husband got bit by a dog yesterday hunting and went to ER too! He had stitches and is on antibiotics! I pray he doesn't miss any work and his hand heals quickly. I also think I am having such a strong reaction now since I was in the psych ward 10 years ago and I had such a hard time with medications. My daughter was on one and it made her ill while in this weekend. They are trying her on something else. I Know what a battle this can be for mental health. I am just so worried about her remembering how I was and what I went through. Although she is not me and I was not an alcoholic. I am going to work hard on letting go and letting God! cdb
Boy when it rains, it really does pour! But through all of this I hear a note of optimisim in your voice (or should I say typing?). You are incredibly strong, though your body at the moment may be telling you otherwise. Hang in there.
We will certainly keep you and your family in our prayers. If our cat could pray, I'm sure she would. We're sending you lots of hugs too.
Good luck to you and keep us posted. Know that we will always be there for you.
Live strong, Karilynn
__________________
It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I'm so sorry to hear of all your family's illnesses - the flu's no fun when everything is 1/2 way "normal" and in the midst of what you're going through - wow. I pray for you and your family, your daughter whom it must be very hard to put in HP's hands now, but especially for you. Are you eating, breathing, taking care of yourself? (sorry the mother in me comes out - lol). You absolutely still have my prayers lady. I have no wise advice, except to take care of you, knowing that you can get through all this one day at a time with HP and alanon. Many hugs and prayers for you sweetie.
OMG Girl, you have such strenght. I am very proud of the way you are handling all this. God is giving you strenght & courage and He always will.
CDB, you & your family are always in my prayers. I know how tough things have been with your daughter & parents. It is good to see that hubby is taking part in all this. I pray that his HP gives him understanding & courage to help with your daughter. You & I know the POWER of God and he is with you always.
Keep " Doing the Do's " CDB. You will get through these very troubled times with Gods help & all of us praying for you & your family. I admire your new found strenght CDB. " One day at a Time " honey.
Take really good care of yourself and keep us posted.
My prayers are with you. No wonder you daughter has been on my mind so much lately, she needs the good thoughts and so do you!!
My dear friend I have been think of you so much and wondering about you alot.
You sound good considering everything that you are going through right now. I am glad that in the needed times you can think of all your friends here and know that we are all sending you strength in our thoughts and prayers.
Thanks so much for your replies and prayers. I am at the library for about 1/2 hour now with no makeup and looking pretty rough but who cares :) It helps for me to keep in touch. Mom and dad are having a better day. I haven't heard from my daughter yet. I am going to try and call her later after I talk to my husband again. She didn't call us during her crisis so I am trying to give her space...she knows where I am at. I am going to tell her that I still believe in her and how much I love her and are here for her! I will ask if I can help in anyway and make sure to then keep my mouth shut and my heart open as she needs to talk or share. I will keep you updated. This is so new for me to not react and call her frantically and leave messages on her cell phone so I feel like my new alanon me is kicking in :) Thanks again,,,cdb (((((xoxoxo)))))
I have been following your posts - it's just that prayers are not my thing, not something I can really, truly offer. However, I do relate, especially about your daughter, and cdb, when my daughter was at the drinking low, hubby was very seriously ill, son got in touble with police - what next? I got pleurisy (dont think thats how it is spelt, but you know what I mean!). You see, when things get so bad, our own health suffers, then, we just have to admit it, we are powerless.
All I can promise is, it will pass. When everything went into meltdown, when i needed to be strong (so I thought), I was as weak as a kitten, could just about raise my head.
Time comes, and we have to hand it over. To the God of our understanding, and to the professionals.
You are very much in my thoughts. My experience is that, sometimes, despite my efforts, things turn out as they are meant to turn out. You have to get your own strength back. All you can do is be the person you are meant to be, your daughter knows in her heart, you are on her side, but, she must make her own steps - I hope, with all my heart, that she does, this is her chance to find some recovery, but, when all is said and done, you can only be responsible for you. So, try to take some time out for your own recovery, your body is telling you something, maybe you are working too hard. Maybe you need some rest.
You have been a good friend to me, in the chatroom and in PM, I am thinking of you, and wishing you well.
