My husband has been sober for about 6 months. Then I have noticed things that were different. Some of his behavior reminded me of things that he just to be like. The way he would talk. Some of the comments he makes. But I try not to think to much into it. I thought that maybe that the way he is now even though he is sober.

We wnet to AC last Saturday and I was gambling at a machine for a while and I would go look for him and he would be no where to be found. Well maybe he step away. Well one time I found him and he has a craberry drink and I tasted it but it tasted funny but I didn't make a big deal about it.

On Sunday we went to the shore to go to the boardwalk, play games and there was a place to go dancing it was a bar area. We paid the money to get in a then he went to get our drinks and I was standing by him and he got the same cranberry drink an i again tasted it and the same taste was there so I asked him if there was any alchol in it and he said no, I called the barentar over to ask if there was alchol in it and they said yes that is what he ordered. We end up leaving.

Then yesterday he told me that he was going for bread and I didn't know at the time but he took my car, and was gone for 2hr. I was so mad. He came home drunk and then started with the yelling at me and the cursing. He blame me because his son was not letting him go outside so he took it out on me.

I can't understand why I am staying with this. It was such a nightmare the last time. I was wondering what is wrong with me.

I am waiting for the right moment and to see if I can take it again. I don't know but right now I am nervous about what is going to happen tonight. I just to hate that I have to worry every day if it is going to be a good day or not.

I don't know honestly why i wouldn't give up the sitatuion. I love him and I am so attached to him it isn't healthy.