Hello all

I am in San Jose with my mother.  Wednesday, the doctors told my mom that we all needed to get to the hospital cuz my sis was dying.  I drove down and now we are just waiting for answers.  They don't know how to fix her.  She has in infection that won't be treated with antibiotics, some kind of super staph resistant to meds.  The "team" of doctors have never seen it and don't know what to do, except make her comfortable.  I saw her yesterday and I just tried to stay positive.  Her boyfriend came in and he is really losing it, crying all day. 

I am numb at the moment and sick to my stomach.  I am trying to keep it together for my kids.  My husband is at home because I just don't want to deal with him right now.  He's more trouble than comfort.  He is hiding out from the p.o. and his work, they think he is with me.  It looks like he got out of trouble.  Whatever, I'm just taking it one minute at a time and have no energy to worry about his life. 

It kills me to see my nephew(16) sad about his mom.  I love him soooo much and to see him cry, this six foot "little boy" about his mom and where he is going to live when she is gone is the worst , breaking my heart.

I wanted to thank you all for your sweet messages and prayers.  They really comfort me just to know you all understand what i am going through with my husband and life in general.  And your experiences show me I am not alone in all of this. So thanks.

Somehow I think my HP is telling me something, but not sure what.  All I can think of is that he wants me to value my family and not take life for granted.  Very important, what do ya think?

Love Julie D