hey guys its OK if you want to give ESH.......

*******this is taken from a "language of letting go"  daily reminder,  my take

The Freedom of Surrender
 
This is the surrender step. Once we surrender,
we become free to take care of ourselve, with
the assistance of our Higher Power. 
 
#####ROSIE....i have been having dificulty
with the "surrender"  thing...i think to me,
it triggers me because of the connotations
that i am giving myself up like i had to with
the perp...to get around this and to realize
that i cannot do this  (recovery)  alone and
unaided...i use the word   "cooperate" with my
higher power or  "alignment"  with my higher
power...that way i am not giving my self up,
but  becomming in sync with my higher
power.......i am accepting that i cannot
recover without the help of the "source"  the
"universal healing"   so i am WILLING  to
"cooperate" with it....
 
 
 
Surrender does not mean we are helpless. I
doesn't mean we surrender to abuse or
intolerable circumstances.  It means we
acknowledge circumstances, then ask God to
help us take care of ourselves in these
circumstances.
 
#####ROSIE.... i know "surrender"  is a
trigger word for me so i get around it by
doing what i can do...i am OPEN to new
perspectives/ perceptions, .....i like this, 
ACKNOWLEDGING circumstances which to me is 
"accepting the facts/reallity"  and making the
best of it AND turning it/us over to our HP , 
that part which we cannot handle,  and YES, 
looking within me so i can take care of me in
these circumstances.....this i can "grasp" 
this description of surrender i can grasp...i
don't know WHY the  word "surrender"  brings
up bad feelings for me...well, i think i know
why, but i don't think the perp actually used
that word.....
 
 
 
We will learn how to say no; how to set
boundaries; how to listen to our feelings,
wants, and needs; and how to respond to others
in a responsible, loving way.  We will learn
how to respond to external circumstances in a
reasonable way, one that exhibits self-care,
self-love, and respect for others.
 
#####ROSIE....i can say "NO"  and i have set
good boundaries where i need to...i am doing
better at listening to my feelings/  wants/
needs AND i think i do better responding to
others in a healthy/ loving way....external
circumstances i think i do better with in that
i do what i can do, and leave the rest....i am
looking at the INTERNAL  (the being part of
me)  more than i used to...i had shut down the
INTERNAL part of me which is my  (being/
feeling/ etc) and i focused on the EXTERNAL
part of me which is mostly the "doing" part of
me....now it is in better balance.....

Surrendering is how we become empowered to
take care of ourselves.
 
#####ROSIE....yes,  "alignment"  
"cooperation" with the SOURCE of it all...not
fighting and protecting, but "going with the
flow"  and NON resistance..i am working on
it...making progress

Turning our will and life over to the care of
God takes the control of our life away from
others.  It also takes the control of others'
lives away from us.  It sets us free to
develop our own connection to our Source and
to ourselves, a connection free of the
demands, expectations, and plans of another
person.  It can even set us free from our own
demands, expectations, and plans.
 
######ROSIE....well i see we have will 
(making choices etc)  but i would like to say 
"giving up my negative ego/ false pride"  and
there again  "cooperation" with my
HP....making choices to take care of
me...keeps me from  controlling /being
controlled by others....yes,  focusing on ME,
and my alignment with the SOURCE......my own
plans right now are  working on loving
me.....my MAIN focus is , with the help of my
higher self,   is to repair the relationship i
have with    me/ universe/ life....thats
it...the rest??? what ever will be will be....

When we stop controlling others and allowing
them to control us, we become free to take
care of ourselves.  The First Step is about
powerlessness.  This step is about owning our
power to take care of ourselves.
 
#####ROSIE...i don't try to control anyone
anymore...i am past that pretty much...my
committment to my own recovery says
that...yes, i slip,  but it does NOT last
before i get back on track taking care of
me.....yes, the first step to me is 
DETACHMENT....giving UP, the fighting and
protecting and manipulation of  and accepting
that something is over our heads  in coping
with by ourselves........2nd step is giving IN
to the knowledge that we cannot do this alone,
but with cooperation with source we CAN...3rd
step is the DECISION to take care of us, and
to ALIGN with our HP as we understand
it....letting go and clearing the energy/karma
so the universe can come in.....

 
 This is the freedom Step.  In this Step we
make a decision to live life differently.  We
make a concious decision to begin taking care
of ourselves with God's help.  We start
creating a life for ourselves, the life we
want to live. 
 
#####ROSIE...i think all three are the freedom
steps....you STOP the fight....you
REALIZE/ACCEPT that there HAS to be another
way of doing this.....you FIND that there is
and you do your  part/cooperation......yes,
"going it"  with the help of my inner higher
power.....looking WITHIN  instead of
WITHOUT.......
 
 
 
 
This process of surrender happens not once,
but again and again as we master a succession
of lessons--- lessons of healing, liberation
and love.  Each time we may think: That's it.
Now I've learned.  the cycle goes around
again...
 
 
######ROSIE...its a revolving door...surrendering
happens over and over and over again...i
REvisit the first 3 steps all the time.....
 
 
 
 
#######ROSIE.....yep,  its my "revolving
door"....over and over we learn....there is
NEVER a point where we say "thats it"   we are
NEVER done, not until we cross over teh great
devide.....its a constant cycle....AS we
revisit it becomes more routing, more natural,
 more serene......thanks  DONE