Al-Anon Family Group

The material presented here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method to exchange information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal level.

Members Login
Username 
 
Password 
    Remember Me  
Miracles In Progress 12 Step Recovery Forums -> Al-Anon Family Group -> Al-Anon Family Group -> Taking Care of ME
Post Info TOPIC: Taking Care of ME
Tammy


Senior Member

Status: Offline
Posts: 394
Date:
Taking Care of ME
Permalink  




I havent posted for almost a week .. However, have really been trying to focus on me.
Boy, it is really hard loving an alcoholic.

Life has been okay here, my A went about 5 days without a drink. Then today while on the boat you guessed it he came home and had been drinking. After we everyone came home from work/school he decided he needed to go to his dads...
( they drink together, you guessed it another A ) ..

Here I am 7:30 and for the first time in a long time i am not freaking out. I know that he was drinking and is still drinking. He will come home sometime after 9pm barely able to walk..

Am I becoming numb ?? I keep saying this over and over again... My head wants out.. My heart sees hope. Somewhere deep inside a glimmer of hope.

We have talked about seperating several times and dividing the assets but have never followed thru.. Are we living just to live ?? I wish I could make a decision, and wake up 5 months later. I keep asking God to lead me .. Guide me down the path we wants me to take.. A path that is right for me and my kids...

This week I bought myself a new car... A car that I've always wanted. A car I never thought I was worthly of.. I know that a car doesnt change who you are. But for me It said I AM WORTH IT.. a small step in the right direction..

I ask myself,... what have i learned in my short time in Al-anon

I didnt CAUSE his drinking
I cant CONTROL his drinking
I cant CURE his drinking

Now if i could just learn to LET GO and LET GOD !!

Thanks for listening..

Tammy



__________________
Tammy
megan


~*Service Worker*~

Status: Offline
Posts: 1161
Date:
Permalink  

Tammy!!!


 


great work!way to take care of you with the car! Excellent progress.


And not worrying about him while he is drinking that is a biggie.


 


We had a boat for many years and it was always a GURANTEE my husband would drink if he boated. I was so happy once I sold it 2 years ago :)


 


Trust in God tammy and follow his lead, you have learned so much already..


 


Enjoy the new car!!! And some new found peace


 


And keep coming back, you're worth it


 


megan



__________________
Megan If you want things you never had you need to do things you have never done
Dolphin123


~*Service Worker*~

Status: Offline
Posts: 1328
Date:
Permalink  

(((((((((((Tammy)))))))))),


It sounds like you are taking care of you! Way to go on the new car!


Trust in your HP and you will make the right decission, whatever that is for you.


Keep Coming back!


Much Love,



__________________
"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
Page 1 of 1  sorted by
 
Quick Reply

Please log in to post quick replies.
Miracles In Progress 12 Step Recovery Forums -> Al-Anon Family Group -> Al-Anon Family Group -> Taking Care of ME