Hello All,

I previously posted in "My Addictions" that I have started the "South Beach Diet", and this means a very strict first two weeks. I have completed one week so far unscathed. Last night when my "A" came home from work I started dinner and just immediately became depressed. I didn't want to eat that, I wanted something good, AKA Carbs . And my "A", who has also gone on the diet to support me in this, tried so hard to cheer me up, but he couldn't. He tried and tried. After we were finishing up dinner, he asked me if I wanted anymore salad, I said no I am still hungry, but not for salad. He looked at me and asked me if this is how he was when he wanted his alcohol or drugs. I really didn't think I was acting that bad, but I told him yeah. I told him when he starts acting all pissy, then when he leaves to go get what he has been wanting I let it go, because I know when he comes home he will be agreeable. He looked at me and said "Wow, because I am about ready to go get you a candy bar." LOL!

It really isn't all that bad, I eat very well now. I eat better now than I ever have, and it really is quite tasty. It is the simple fact that right now I have And I know it isn't going to be like this forever, but last night none of that mattered. I wanted something that I was not going to let myself have. And that made me mad. And my poor "A" I had to tell him he was powerless over my bitching. LOL... And he was the one trying to comfort me, and finally he asked me if there was anything he could do for me and I said no. He finally got it.

This morning when I woke up I told myself to grow up, deal with it, and treat my family better. I apologized to my "A" for being so hard to be around the night before. He said no problem, and that he was sure he had been worse to me, and he thought it was funny that I was the one whose addictions were getting to me, and he was the calm one. And I can see the funny side of it to.

Thanks for letting me vent!

Much Love,

Okay I had to add a quick note. A very dear friend of mine is visiting form out of state. She wanted to go to one our favorite places to eat for lunch today. I was really worried about it because I didn't think I would be able to eat and stick to my diet. So I decided that I would go, and do the best that I could. When I got there, the special (they only have them on Tuesdays) was a grilled chicken salad. Which is on my diet!!!!!!! I just got it with out the croutons. I was so happy and so thankful. I perked right up. I was able to enjoy myself guiltfree!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes!